chapter 9 - haze..it's a bit warmer today; 8deg..

listening to my new indon-malay-english playlist...suka..pandai eli pilih lagu...
currently, amik feel nak buat INCA 101-INCA for dummy..balik kang kena ajar bebudak tu..so, kena buat user manual utk diri sendiri dulu..

how about me? seseme...sakit tekak...batuk...my voice? its either sengau or rockers...idong blocked ah..ingus beku dah...
4 weeks to go..n then, warm air...warm water..no more peti ais...englishmen, depa pakai 5 lapis baju..padan la nmpak macho..kita org malaysia ni, pakai 2 lapis je...today? saya pakai 4 lapis..hehehehe...kena jaga diri sendiri, jgn smpai demam...jadi doktor diri sendiri..mak xde nk manja2...

okeh, dapat feel dah..INCA 101, here i come...

chapter 8 - overloading n enjoying toblerone n listening to indonesian songs

my brain is basically overload...
with proton-lotus problem (which they said, don't think bout it) - i'm the victim here..of course i'll think about it..what if suddenly proton say, balik skarang!!
nak kemas beg lagik..satu hal..tukar tiket..2 hal...hadiah abah x carik lagik...sib baik mak setel dah..
with matlab block diagram...nice...kotak2...arrow2...pastu pusing2..pastu susun2..pastu...ntah..overload...
alamak..abes dah coklat...need more...lapar ah..
with INCA, yg user friendly but according to justin, its confusing somehow..n ralph..owh..i didn't know inca can do that..me? try n error..mcm dulu2 time memula guna gredi..tekan je pape..
huuu...rindu ah gredi..pcavs..winflash..pdt..blm..apa kabar keta tebakar tu ah?? hmmm

smalam, nak kfc..arini, nak nasik ayam, sok...nak apa tah...
sambal belacan dapat dah, sotong jugak, ikan jugak, nasik lemak gak, thanks kakak malaysian hall..sedap betul..rm3.50 utk sambal belacan n timun..xpe, sy bayar...hehehe...kemaruk sambal belacan..
imagining: nasik + sayur masak lemak putih + ikan kembung goreng + sambal belacan..
nice...
imagining: nasik + kicap bilal + ikan kembung goreng + ulam...
nice...

~smiling~

chapter 7 - bila rumput dah mula beku...

3 minggu dah...5 more weeks to go..i'm counting weeks, it has single digit in it..if days...35 more days..lama tuh...

missed my bed badly, automatic car (neoku), Oggy dan lipas2 (katun perancis hari ahad kul 9 pagi ntv7)..

here, ulat2 resdung tidak mengganas (beku kot ulat2 tu), tp...seafood pn jarang jumpa...belacan, xde..udang kering, xde...can u imagine my miserability?

4 or 5 of my friends are getting married and i'm not be able to attend it..obviously...when is my turn ah? nak kawen gak...malas la nk drive g keje ngadap jam hari2...tgk zaf jeles jek...ada org drivekan..
maria n acong pn dah menjadi...ejen dia ni, single lagik ni...kena buat fast track ah one day. potong sume org...bak kata sarah, kena ada planning..bila SOP, DQCM, PQCM, etc..n if it involves mat saleh, the list will be longer..hmmmm...
elehh...taun lepas buat planning gak..last2...tecampak kat sini..becinta..dgn enjen..huhhh...nk kata loser, x, nak kata ok, pn x gak...kat sini, kejenye, gayut ngan mak hari2..tp ok pe...anak yg baik tu namanye..
lapar ah...makan je kejenye..abes ah gemuk cani...asik2 coklat2..asik2 coklat..tp best...coklat x cair...keras je..suka...

arghhh...the weather makes me even more mengarut than normal..kembali ke pangkal jalan eli...kembali...
huhhh...abes keje dah...jalan2...suka...g jalan...

chapter 6 - i like....at last jumpa gak..hahaha

kalo bole buat ringtone kan best...hehehehe...
hatiku berbunga2...

3 bulan lepas..eli n en. daud...dok argue psl tajuk lagu nih...en daud betul..
joget2!!!
uikk...lunch time..makan...

chapter 5 - nak masak apa ahh arini???

its the most frequent question i ask roza and vice versa..makan ape ahh?? masak ape ahh???...n everyday, we will spend 5-10 mins planning our meals and 15-20 mins mesmerizing our fridge and cabinets (the contains)... planning what to buy, which to to give, to who..gift to anak2...toy la...and abg haq wants me to send his regards to mr. bean..i need to find encik kacang..kat mana ah...

today i spend around 1 hour trying to digest all the info mark gave (in our 2 1/2 hours training)..control systems, block diagram, MATLAB..feels like i'm back to my uni era which i left almost 2 years ago..feels like i'm doing my final project but only for 8 weeks, n need to understand everything...skolah balik nih...

positif thinking..kereta gen2...engine campro..plus..IDU, APS, Battery, 2 clutches, CVT, a lot of control units, touch screen, extra pumps, 1 starter/alternator, etc..n the engine bay looks really complicated (don't want to imagine the wiring harness), the engine shifted to the left a bit..the car battery is in the trunk...x lah teruk sgt kan...

i guess i need to do a lot of my theraphy sessions (shopping n jalan2)....pulang...

suhu skarang ialah..max 7..min 1...huuhuuhuuu...gegegege...

chapter 4 - L.O.V.E

the song is actually from the new coco chanel advertisement..
it's juz too catchy..no personal reason..

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore and love

It's all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart but please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

juz a conversation with ancun..

[12:54] abanghaq10: ada web cam tak
[12:54] elisunar: eli kat opis xde webcam
[12:54] elisunar: kat umah je ada webcam n headset
[12:55] elisunar: x bwk laptop g opis
[12:55] elisunar: berat
[12:55] abanghaq10: ada voice call tak
[12:55] elisunar: kat umah la..
[12:55] elisunar: sume complete
[12:55] elisunar: hehehehe
[12:55] elisunar: masa...tolak 8 dr malaysia
[12:56] abanghaq10: mak dah sampai umah acun
[12:56] elisunar: umah ancun ada internet ke?
[12:57] elisunar: uik??
[12:57] abanghaq10: ada yg free dari umah kak nani
[12:57] abanghaq10: pakai wifi
[12:57] elisunar: oooo...
[12:57] elisunar: x ilang2 pulak...
[12:57] abanghaq10: kalau kat umah mak curi umi punya
[12:58] abanghaq10: wa dah setting baik punya
[12:59] abanghaq10: tapi umi punya wifi tu selalu on & off
[12:59] abanghaq10: mak tanya u nak makan e
[13:00] elisunar: makan ke?
[13:00] elisunar: bwkk roti mkn kat meja..
[13:00] elisunar: mat saleh mkn cmtu gak..
[13:00] abanghaq10: kak nani suruh bawa kemera nak try fress con
[13:01] elisunar: try sok ke?
[13:01] elisunar: xnak ah..
[13:01] elisunar: pc lotus ni..
[13:01] elisunar: kalo kat umah tu ok la
[13:01] abanghaq10: kita guna skype but when
[13:02] elisunar: time eli slalu tepon mak ah
[13:02] elisunar: kt sini kul 5 pagi, kt sana kul 1 ptg
[13:02] elisunar: ok x?
[13:02] abanghaq10: time cuti ke
[13:02] elisunar: hari2 pn eli call mak time tu
[13:03] abanghaq10: nanti acun link gan skpye dulu
[13:03] abanghaq10: tak join member lagi
[13:03] elisunar: dload skype dulu
[13:03] elisunar: best tu menda tu
[13:04] elisunar: suka org yg cipta...
[13:04] abanghaq10: kat sana seronok tak
[13:05] elisunar: ok la...
[13:05] elisunar: sejuk...
[13:05] elisunar: dah 2 hari sgt sejuk
[13:05] abanghaq10: makan sedap tak
[13:05] elisunar: mkn eli masak la...
[13:05] elisunar: mesti la sedap...
[13:05] abanghaq10: masak ke makan benda dlm bungkusan
[13:05] elisunar: dedua..
[13:06] elisunar: kalo rajin, masak...
[13:06] elisunar: tgk dh gamba?
[13:06] abanghaq10: ada baju MU yg murah
[13:06] abanghaq10: blm
[13:07] elisunar: jersey, even jersey norwich pn haraga = 40pound
[13:07] abanghaq10: hantar kat email abanghaq@hotmail.com
[13:07] elisunar: pastu, made in china..
[13:07] elisunar: baik bli kat kl
[13:07] abanghaq10: tak payah la beli kat prtaling street dah le
[13:07] elisunar: betul2..
[13:08] elisunar: kalo eli bli sthing, eli nk bli menda yg payah nk dpt kat kl
[13:08] elisunar: ok x?
[13:08] elisunar: baru la spesel sket..
[13:09] elisunar: bila akim nak sunat?
[13:09] abanghaq10: ancun nak makan dulu lapar
[13:09] abanghaq10: nak chat gan adik tak
[13:09] elisunar: ceehhhh
[13:10] elisunar: abes kuar menda papetah
[13:10] abanghaq10: tak pasti tapi awal cuti akhir thn
[13:10] abanghaq10: dlm bulan 11 kot
[13:10] elisunar: bulan 11 dah la ni...
[13:10] elisunar: hmm..
[13:10] elisunar: dah2 g makan...
[13:11] elisunar: eli blk kang nk makan puas2...#
[13:11] abanghaq10: ada makan sedap kat carefour chef dari thai
[13:11] elisunar: baru eh
[13:12] abanghaq10: dia org buat promosi tak tahu sampai bila
[13:12] elisunar: alaaaaaaaaaaaa
[13:12] elisunar: huuuuuuu
[13:12] elisunar: waaaaaa
[13:13] abanghaq10: kak jah kata sedap ancun tak try lagi nanti ancun tlg mkn kan utk eli he he he
[13:13] elisunar: cess la
[13:13] elisunar: g ah makan..
[13:13] elisunar: makan kan skalik..
[13:14] abanghaq10: adik kata dia nk toy
[13:14] elisunar: hmmm...toy..roger
[13:14] abanghaq10: adik kata dia cyg bik eli
[13:15] elisunar: cyg adik jgk...
[13:15] abanghaq10: acun tanya adik bik eli kat mana dia kata eli kat taiping....he he he
[13:16] elisunar: taiping je?
[13:16] elisunar: jap..mana dia tauword taiping tu?
[13:18] abanghaq10: abang nak gi rombongan sek ke taiping tapi x dibenarkan so abang selalu nak try pujuk ayah dan ibu kasi dia gi tapi still tak di benar kan so hari2 dia cakap pasal taiping so adik ikut lah,,,,
[13:18] elisunar: see...
[13:18] elisunar: ooo...rombongan yg ada zoo taiping tu..eli pn tau apa..
[13:19] abanghaq10: kalau abanghaq gi sapa nak jaga hakim bila dia sunat
[13:19] elisunar: ancun la..
[13:19] abanghaq10: woi wok la
[13:20] elisunar: work je pun...adik ah jaga...bg dia balas dendam kat hakim..heeee
[13:21] abanghaq10: adik la ni selalu merayau sejak ada anfal kat umah nenek
[13:21] abanghaq10: so bazil & nabil pun join sekaki...
[13:22] elisunar: bkn ke anfal xde pn dia merayau gak...
[13:22] elisunar: pepagi dgr dah suara dia
[13:22] abanghaq10: kalau ada nafal dia merayau jauh dari biasa
[13:23] abanghaq10: selalu kat umah mak, nabil & bazil ni ada anfal so jarak dia merayau ada tambah 15 kaki
[13:24] elisunar: hehehe..
[13:26] abanghaq10: ye tau tak lim go tong dah mati
[13:26] elisunar: dia mati b4 ye dtg sini
[13:26] abanghaq10: ye ke
[13:27] elisunar: yupp2
[13:28] abanghaq10: ancun laparrrrrr gile ok lah nanti bila2 kita chat lagi..... bye... kaknani kirim salam
[13:28] elisunar: ook
[13:28] elisunar: kem salam balik
[13:28] abanghaq10: dia perli ancun type lambat
[13:28] elisunar: mmg pun kot
[13:28] elisunar: nite2

chapter 3 - dia selalu ada...

malaysia: 5th nov 3.44am
norwich: 4th nov 7.44pm (it's still my birthday)

juz finish my report for the 1st week...n roza is already asleep. and i? i'm chasing cars in my head.

dia selalu ada..walaupun dia jauh, walaupun dia sedih, walaupun dia tau dia xdpt apa2, walaupun dia xperlu ada, walaupun dia asik kecewa...tp dia masih ada...

he knows me, understands me, even if i don admit, even if i act strong..sometimes, he knows me better than i know myself..even when he can't be near, even all he can do is say "insyaAllah everything will be ok"...but still...he's there...

with him, i can't lie, i can't act..becoz...he knows...he reminds me of mak...he cares...he even gave me early bday present, becoz i won't be at where i always be during my bday...n thats makes my heart smile...becoz he remembers..

and i?
i need to figure out...what i want...n what i need...this is the time..i'm out my comfort zone...being alone in this strange place, no family, no friends...n i will know, who really cares about me..i know mak will...becoz mak rindu eli..but thats mak..n of course i need mak..i already knew that 24 years ago...

tp yg pasti...dia selalu ada...n i'm grateful for it...psl dia kata "everything will be ok"..

chapter 2 - I love skype...

this morning, borak with mak for around 45 mins n it cost me only rm4.51....
nice...even cheaper dr call kat malaysia..n mak did said...mak rindu eli jugak...hmmm...suka dgr tu...tp xpe since call guna skype sgt murah, eli call mak slalu...psl rindu mak jugak...

i'll be here for 1.8 month or 1 month or less than that? the question need to be answered by tajul..x paham sungguh cara management pakcik tu...i'll wait for his decision...but...kata la, kalo kena balik awal, i'll gladly, happily, n sgt2 menantikan menda itu. reasons:

1) homesick...hahahaha
2) dpt join korban
3) dpt tgk dina 1 tahun
4) dpt tgk hakim sunat
5) otak x cramp sgt
6) dpt balik umah..suka..sgt suka..
7) bond ngan proton staun je...kalo less than a month kat sini la, which is not a problem for me..lagi kejap, lagi bagus. sangap gilos kat sini.nmpak sgt...
8) WEEEEEEEEEEEE....pulang!!!!!!!!!!

tp..doa byk2...shorten the training period...jom doa sama2...jom2...
mak pun suka kalo blk cepat...see...sama je anak beranak...

bak kata abah...rumah ni senyap kalo eli xde...mak pn ckp td..umah senyap...

cess...umur sok 24 taun..tp...manja mcm apa je...tp bak kata org putih...

-home is where the heart is-

p/s: sok mak nak masak bubur merah..nk jugak...dulu time kt hostel pn cani..hmmmmmm...

chapter 1 - its cold, its dry, its quiet and leaves are red...

so here i am at a place called norwich at east england in the month of november...my birthday is juz 3 days away...i will be 24th at this place, without my family, my friends, alone with roza, in this strange place...

the first few days normally is the hardest days ever. same with me..with this weather, the manual car, the time zone, and i never imagine that i could miss malaysia this much...

i already miss everything..my mum, dad, anak2, friends, neo, tv, astro, food..did i mention everything? it means everything...

and i drive a manual car here. my problem with manual car is, i always forgot a thing called clutch down there..

i hate this, being alone and away..but i'll get through it somehow..i'll be strong..and i'm counting days...55 days is not that long rite...kan? hope so...

~hmmmm~