disenchanted:
cynical, disappointed, disenthralled, disentranced, disillusioned, embittered, indifferent, jaundiced, knowing, mondaine, sick of, sophisticated, soured, undeceived, worldly, worldly-wise
i started book 2 with the same feelings i felt when i 1st started book 1. though the reasons now is different, but its feel the same....disenchanted or should i say uninterested....
things that i want to do now is, cry...for no reason...sounds silly. i'm acting like a fool myself.
a friend of mine said that i'm not like before...guess that because i dont do a lot of thinking before...i just live my life the way that i want to....i like it better that way...sweet old eli..eli with wrinkles as a result of too many laugh n smiles.....
this adulthood is just tiring...during my childhood, i always wonder why adults always think so much, why they cant make things simple....but now...i've become 1 competely complex adult myself.....fool me...for not knowing what i want now....for losing what i once had....for thinking so much....for not being able to be like before....for not knowing how to let go of everything...for hurting myself....for not crying....for pretending to be strong....for not be able to smile with my heart....for..........not sharing.........not knowing how to share.......not knowing how to start back..........for having these multi emotional time....for not being strong enough.........
i'm killing my heart......
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