where to start....(mood:listening to James Blunt-You're beautiful..over n over again)
with all my confusion, my lost, my fear, my heart broken, my wishes....i would say, my life is brilliant....
i was scared of risk, scared of hope, scared of opening my heart....still scared of letting people see what i feel inside....i'm learning...i'm being strong...i'm being me... (james blunt kept saying "you're beautiful" to me:my heart flipped)
i am...not physically...but inside..i know i'm beautiful....i'm not perfect...i'm learning to be better....i do hurt people sometimes...not intentionally...still...i do hurt people....people who loves me....
dare to risk....
dare to hope....
dare to be hurt....
i do let my heart open lately...i'm not lost anymore...but...seems like i'm going to be hurt...again...but this time...i'll prepare myself...i won't be like before...i'm stronger now...i've learn the hard way....i don't want to be lost again...
and i will say...hurt is like my middle name...i'm so used to it...until...i don't care about it anymore...it teaches me....to live in my brilliant life....
i'm moving on...i'm not confused....i'm not lost....i'm the new me....life is hurt...love is hurt...risk is hurt...hope is hurt....but...not being myself, being lost, living in confusion and fear...hurts me more....
my life...with what i've got now...with the risk of getting hurt again...is brilliant....
p/s: feel so much better now....not scared of getting hurt anymore...hurt is hurt...it'll makes me sad...it'll makes me cry....but its part of my life...
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