chapter 3 - conversation wit a fren...

1st approach....
suhaili sunar: ko ada?
suhaili sunar: bantuan...
garnet_1801: ader
suhaili sunar: ko mmg the best ah...
garnet_1801: asal?

after a while....
suhaili sunar: garang btul mlm ni..
garnet_1801: heheh
garnet_1801: nk bg otak ko yg blur tu sedar sket

in the middle of the conversation...
garnet_1801: aku x blah die..tp klu die nak..
garnet_1801: ko sure ke ko xnak?
garnet_1801: sbb aku x rase ko akn tolak jz like dat..
garnet_1801: tul x?
suhaili sunar: huuuuuu....
suhaili sunar: nape la aku ada kwn2 yg sgt kenl aku...
suhaili sunar: stimes...its a bless....stimes...its a curse
garnet_1801: then?
garnet_1801: sape lagi yg nk tolong otak ko yg blur tu buat keputusan?
garnet_1801: klu x ktorg2 yg knal ko ni
suhaili sunar: kiut la ko...
suhaili sunar: adeh2...adeh....
garnet_1801: ko jpe die dl..
garnet_1801: tgk ape yg die nk ckp..
garnet_1801: jujur kat hati ko..
garnet_1801: for jz one sec, ketepikan la ego ko
suhaili sunar: god...
suhaili sunar: u really know me...
suhaili sunar: inside out..
suhaili sunar: damn~
garnet_1801: kan..
garnet_1801: so skrg ko dh tau pe nak buat?

end of our conversation...
garnet_1801: ceni je la..
garnet_1801: ko jz jpe die, n tgk pe die nak
garnet_1801: time tu jgn pk pape
garnet_1801: biar hati ko yg decide..
suhaili sunar: ok...ok...
suhaili sunar: tq babe...
suhaili sunar: aku pk...
suhaili sunar: aku nak tgk citer heroes ni...nak stat dah...ko
suhaili sunar: ko tau citer tu?
garnet_1801: tau
garnet_1801: tp aku layan katun je skrg
suhaili sunar: huhh...
suhaili sunar: umo dah tua...
suhaili sunar: god(?) save our king...
garnet_1801: anime tu bkn utk bdk kecik ek
garnet_1801: black cat klako
suhaili sunar: aku tau...aku tau
suhaili sunar: nak stat dah ni....
garnet_1801: ok
garnet_1801: bubye
suhaili sunar: dudaa.....

fren...a bless

chapter 2 - confusion....

i have so many questions..left unanswered...i want to ask why...why this song....

but there is no exact answer when it involves life...some questions, we better left it unanswered...

n i guess...i will live with this confusion for a long time...

chapter 1 - intro

y do i start this blog...today...now....i just need to write something...apart of pretending that i'm busy (office hour....after 4 days holiday...u do the math....hahaha)....

i feel completely empty but full...at the same time...well, i guessed i'm juz being confused...lost...thats wat i am lately....i want to pretend that everything is ok...actually...everything is ok...xcept for me....n its hard for me to adapt....why is evryone is so...normal...while...i'm here being a weirdo...

i'm not in those weird weirdo category...its just my mind...i cannot think straight.....ok...i'm barely thinking....i wish for so many things in my life....i've got it all....ok....apart from mazda rx8, being a pilot, n marry batman....but still, i'm blessed wit so many good things in my life....yeah...i own a car not rx8 of course, i have a job, living wit parents, wonderful family, loud friends....i couldn't ask for more.....

yet i'm not completely happy....sumthing is missing from me.....i can see it "byebye" me day by day.....i guess....i need to stop wishing....but keep on hoping.....damn....it hard....

today....i make a pledge....i wont let anybody.....mess with my life or my heart ever...again.....

this blog will remind me of this.....strong eli....strong....