tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27571304311078089082012-02-17T10:41:53.835+08:00me....this is all about me....about...what i feel...what i want to be...what i've lost...what i want...what i need....n most importantly....who i am...elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.comBlogger981100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-39157208497340203632009-05-25T13:15:00.004+08:002009-05-25T13:46:17.562+08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_KlMMncGApxo/Shop2Cp_3mI/AAAAAAAAAMM/iDkl21KN3pk/s1600-h/9.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 187px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_KlMMncGApxo/Shop2Cp_3mI/AAAAAAAAAMM/iDkl21KN3pk/s400/9.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5339626316603842146" border="0" /></a><br /><br />presenting......us...si bantal n si busuknya....<br /><br /><br />menanti sebuah jawaban....by padi<br /><br />the other day, when hubby suddenly played this song he said...<br />"ni lagu awak..."<br />and i was like (with no sensitivity like always)<br />"nape? awak tunggu jawapan apa?"<br />smiling he said<br />"xde la..dulu la...masa awak xmo dindon"<br />stunned...i replied..<br />"menanti lagi ke?" *kissed on his forehead*<br /><br />cess.....tetiba rindu hubby sendiri...tp...x salah kan...<br /><br />padan muka kitorang...<br />sape suruh satu kat penang satu kat selangor...<br /><br />patu nk komplen2...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-3915720849734020363?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-73545407155078136512009-05-22T09:10:00.002+08:002009-05-22T09:27:11.323+08:00tell me...how are we suppose to trust anyone?<br /><br />raped by family members<br />snatched<br />killed in own home<br /><br />tell me....if home is not safe, where is safe?<br /><br />malaysia kini? malaysia boleh?<br /><br />sould we trust our pemimpin?<br />semua asik nk jatuhkan satu sama lain...<br /><br />do they realize?<br /><br />rakyat malaysia makin kejam....<br />rakyat malaysia bunuh org mcm bunuh nyamuk..<br />rakyat malaysia makin tertekan...<br />rakyat malaysia makin hilang fikiran.....<br />rakyat malaysia masih igt Tuhan?<br /><br />apa yg pemimpin tunjuk kat kita?<br /><br />gaduh...<br />dewan undangan dah jd macam tadika...<br />patut ke?<br />pastu satu malaysia tgk...<br /><br />i'm not a politician myself....but i'm still malaysian...<br />and i'm sick...sick of all these rubbish....<br /><br />ibu2, nenek2...jadi mangsa...snatched, killed, robbed...<br /><br />children raped....raped? apa yg budak 2-5 tahun ada?<br />seksi ke budak2?<br /><br />is humanity still exist?<br /><br />and more...<br />who killed altantuya?<br />c4 bomb..bukan calang2 bomb...<br /><br />letupkan org smpai hancur lepas tu......tgk je?<br />siapa altantuya? dia xde family?<br />dia patung?<br />dia apa?<br /><br />orang....manusia.....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-7354540715507813651?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-9385457341659804452009-04-13T09:46:00.002+08:002009-04-13T09:47:58.334+08:00kawen dah....abes dah pening kenduri....<br />WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-938545734165980445?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-75739861795324969992009-03-24T17:27:00.002+08:002009-03-24T17:34:27.730+08:00eeeee....lagi seminggu lebih....<br /><br />n everything under control...<br />eventho org dok kata...<em>hang ni...x macam org nk kawen.....</em><br />tp...everything under control....<br />setakat ni lah....<br /><br />kenduri kawin je pun kan....nape nk stress2....<br />baik tolong mak gunting cili kering nk buat sambal goreng yg sedap....hmmmm...<br />atau bermain dengan alya...<br />atau tgk tv..mlm ni ugly betty n desperate housewives...<br />atau tidur...my sweet escape...<br /><br />and i'm so used dgn rewang...<br />org kata, pengantin xyah tolong2 rewang nih...<br />tp..........nk rewang gak..potong bawang ke...blender cili ke....<br /><br />facial? no<br />spa? nope<br />beauty regime? no....<br />diet? hehehehe.....me can diet meh? (lucky baju kawen buat time tgh gemuk...xyah susah2 saya nk diet)<br /><br />xpe la...xyah la hipokrit...kawen je la dgn keadaan yg sedia ada ni....<br />xyah la nk comel2 sgt...sat g bila comot...tu yg kes laki carik lain tuh.....<br /><br />tul x?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-7573986179532496999?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-61026705541252183632009-03-13T15:29:00.002+08:002009-03-13T15:45:44.544+08:00<span style="color:#00cccc;">1.Someone tells you they love you, you say...</span><br /><br />iyee...keee?????<br /><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;"><span style="color:#00cccc;">2.If you won a lot of money on the lottery, what would you buy first?</span><br /></span><br />ishhhh....HARAMMMM<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">3.Do you miss anyone?</span><br /><br />does katil counts??? k...la.....hmmm.....let...see...........*blank*<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">4.Who was driving the last time you were in a car?</span><br /><br />me...myself...and i....<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">5. Do you love your bed?</span><br /><br />should i say more???<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">6.Will this weekend be a good one?</span><br /><br />attend wedding and more wedding...makan free...good la....<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">7.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?<br /></span><br />already proven.....<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">8.How is your hair?<br /></span><br />those degil type....u know what i mean....<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">9.Do you like your life as of now?<br /></span><br />bersyukur dgn apa yg ada....<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">10.Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?</span><br /><br />no...xnak layan<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">11.Do you drink coffee?</span><br /><br />hmmm....either give me more...or...xnk ah...nnt hyper<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">12.Does anyone call you babe or baby?</span><br /><br />hana did just now...come on la babe.<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">13.What were you doing yesterday at midnight?</span><br /><br />tido.... :)<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">14.Do you like surprises?<br /></span><br />is the surprise includes food? then not really la....<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">15.What are your plans for the future?</span><br /><br />long term? or short? short term...saya mau tido<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">16.Have you ever set foot in a tanning bed?<br /></span><br />i'm already blessed with tanned skin<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">17.Do you make your bed everyday?<br /></span><br />lipat simut....pastu lari g mandi...xcept for weekend la ye....<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">18.Your best friend tells you she is pregnant what is your reaction?</span><br /><br />jaga diri...jgn lasak2...jaga makan....blaa...bla...bla....<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">19.Do you like pasta?<br /></span><br />spageti...saya tau masakkk spageti....<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">20.Whisper or shout?</span><br /><br />BOTH!!! (i'm shouting...shhh)<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">21.Swim or run?</span><br /><br />walk... :)<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">22.When did somebody tell you they loved you?</span><br /><br />recalling...recalling....saya sayang diri saya... <--- counted?<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">23.Last person to annoy you?<br /></span><br />kakak pos mini yg asik jawab....abess...sume abesss.....<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">24.Do you wish your hair was shorter or longer than it currently is?<br /></span><br />????<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">25.Do you have a secret that less than 3 people know about?</span><br /><br />pssstt...can you keep a secret?<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">26.Have you ever had a phone conversation with someone who lived in a different state?<br /></span><br />tentu sekali....lagi mau nanya...<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">27.Do you and your best friend have the same cell company?</span><br /><br />all of us use 2 phone companies...so that....kita bole talk panjang2...<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">28.Are you good at persuading?</span><br /><br />on what issue???? try me...<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">29.Are there a lot of people in your house?</span><br /><br />hmmm....does justin counts?<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">30.Does the same person call you every single day?</span><br /><br />pasti...kalau x perang dunia meletus....<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">31.Last call received from who??</span><br /><br />dindon<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">32.What are you doing tonight?</span><br /><br />tido? rewang? tv?<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">33.Do you have a guy friend you tell everything to?</span><br /><br />hmmm..............nahhhh...laki skang suka gossip<br /><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">34.Are you friends with more guys or girls?<br /></span><br />even....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6102670554125218363?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-19144892139957496682009-03-08T00:23:00.004+08:002009-03-08T00:30:09.185+08:00ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />lagi 3 minggu...<br /><br />let see....<br />2 bulan lepas...amik feel utk kawin....now...still amik feel lagik...<br />normal kah itu?<br /><br />kalo sok nak kawen tp feel blom dtg lagik cane? <br />mengong...betul...feel aku....nih...........<br /><br />mana kamu feel...mana???<br />kena risau x? kalo xde feel? kena x?<br />tp...macam nak xnak je kawen...ye x?<br /><br />aku ni biar benar?????<br />bole lagi nk buat lawak time2 cani...<br />tp...series nih...feel xde nih....<br /><br />nak kawen kena ada feel x? <br />maria....jawab soklan aku nih!!!!!!!!!!!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-1914489213995749668?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-50048525370133404082009-02-24T14:05:00.003+08:002009-02-24T14:15:43.601+08:00my kerja kawin to date...<br /><br />- borang: langsung x setel<br />- kad: baru tulis 100 tp tgn dah lenguh. rehat jap...<br />- hantaran: sudut kerastangan bersama eli.....credit to mak n kak atin di atas sumbangan idea. siap 3 dah!!!!<br />- baju: masih ON THE WAY...meredah hutan belantara, merentas lautan luas, melalui denai dan semak last skali...kastam Malaysia.<br />- goodies: nnt la buat...<br /><br />- pe lagi ah? tiap kali nak list mesti lupa sume benda....<br />- yang ku pikir sekarang....<br />- katil...tido..bantal....tv...<br />uik...hari ni selasa...malam ni...ugly betty n desperate housewife<br />ujung minggu ni main paintball...HUAHAHAHAHAHA......<br /><br />apa la yg org pening sgt nk prepare kawen...ke...aku ni yg telampau lepak????<br /><br />ALIEN KAH SAYA? Betulkah kata enoch? dia memanggil ku ALIEN....<br />mak kata...<br />"pegi main2 dulu minggu ni...tp last ye...lepas ni...pikir pasal hal kawin ye..."<br /><br />ok mak..."pis"<br /><br />stop eli...stop.....makin ngarut ko nnt....<br /><br />YAHHH!!!! SUDAH INGAT!!!!<br />kasut...kena carik kasut...WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5004852537013340408?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-50578645475969117402009-02-05T09:50:00.003+08:002009-02-05T10:55:50.842+08:00- tunggu baju sampai n tunjuk kat both akak make-up<br />- bayar kesemua duit2 yang perlu dibayar<br />- Daftar nikah (IMPORTANT!!!)<br />- tetiba nak "kissing ball" kena DIY nih....<br />- kek kawen....oh kek kawen....<br />- usha bunga kat petaling street...tgk rege...<br />- apa lagi ah?....mcm byk...tp tetiba ilang sumenye...<br /><br />bagus betul nih....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5057864547596911740?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-36333329233007899372009-01-29T14:57:00.003+08:002009-01-29T15:12:31.948+08:00sumone dropped a comment to my previous entry...(ada gak org baca blog ni rupanya....igtkan sorg2 membebel kat sini)<br /><br />JGN KAWEN KALO X REDI!!!!<br /><br />thing is....kita xkan tau kan...<br />ada org kata...AKU REDI NAK KAWEN!!! tgk2 pas 3 taun cerai...<br />ada org lak, pak dia kata...KAO SUDAH BAPAK JODOHKAN DENGAN ANAK PAK ANJANG DARI KAMPUNG SEBELAH....pastu...anak 10, cucu 50, cicit 100....<br /><br />as for me...kalau ada jodoh, kalau Allah izinkan, kalo umur panjang....insyaAllah, nikah la saya 4 April nnt. <br /><br />saya redi ke? <br /><br />kalau masak jadi ukuran, nak belaja semua resipi di dunia....lama lagi la saya kawin<br />kalau duit jadi ukuran, lepas kereta, rumah, lepas rumah, tanah, lepas tu? list goes on....lama lagi la saya kawin<br />kalau hati jadi ukuran, hati org tu berubah2...cinta hati ku si batman, x wujud lagi...si keanu reeves tu...x kenal lagi diriku ini...lama lagi la saya kawin<br />kalau kelembutan jadi ukuran, hehehe...no komen..saya keje ngan enjen..<br /><br />apa yang patut kita ukur untuk kawin ni?<br />semua ketentuan Tuhan...siapa la kita nak lawan ketentuan DIA...<br /><br />betul kan?<br /><br />what we can do is..DOA, MOHON, MINTA...Allah tau apa yang terbaik untuk hambaNYA...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-3633332923300789937?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-52394309796890358682009-01-21T17:02:00.003+08:002009-01-21T17:10:39.387+08:00<div>lagi 2 bulan 2 minggu saya kena kawen...<br />redi kah saya?<br /><br />one of my fren answered this when i popped the question....<br /><br />question:<br /><font color="#33ffff"><em>bila kita nak tau kita redi ke x nak kawen?</em><br /></font><br />answer....<br /><font color="#33ffff"><em>soalan ko ni, jawapan dia subjektif...org xkan penah tau dia redi ke x....<br />ko imagine camni la...ko stadi giler2 utk exam....nape ko stadi? psl ko xtau pn apa soklan yg kuar soknye....last2 ko kena gak amik exam tu....ko xleh elak punyer...redi ke, x ke, yakin ke x....ko kena gak amik...ada org pass...ada org fail...<br />kawen camtu la...ko prepare la diri ko giler2 cane pn, tp, ko xtau pn apa ujian2 ko nnt...tp yg penting ko kena cuba...usaha lebih sket...ko sure xnak fail kan....</em> </font></div><br /><p><font color="#33ffff"></font> </p><br /><p><font color="#33ffff"><font color="#ffffff">hehehehe........nasib la labu.....</font></p><br /><div><br /></font><br /><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5239430979689035868?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-78404884901704138702009-01-14T21:41:00.003+08:002009-01-14T21:53:22.249+08:00the menu we(me and abah) always ordered when we went out for supper 15 years ago...<br />*missing that moment*<br /><br />things that never fails to make me smile...<br /><br />- alya sengih...<br />- alya joget...<br />- alya tepuk muka semua org dgn sepenuh jiwa...<br />- alya ckp bababab...mamamamamam....<br /><br />cumil....alya....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-7840488490170413870?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-69475046253070734892009-01-08T21:54:00.001+08:002009-01-08T21:58:58.840+08:00what more to say..........<br /><br />i'm fixing myself.........<br />u wanna help?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6947504625307073489?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-15503875282207806312008-12-29T00:25:00.003+08:002008-12-29T00:47:59.922+08:00trying to stop...<br />trying to be strong...<br />trying to stay sane...<br />trying to believe...<br />trying to stay happy...<br />trying not to show...<br />trying to be brave...<br />trying to forget...<br />trying to...............<br /><br />what if i stop trying?<br />what will happen?<br />what will i loose?<br /><br /><br />what if i continue trying?<br />will people care?<br />what will i get?<br /><br /><br />what matters now is<br />i'm trying to sleep.............<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-1550387528220780631?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-26397994438507838232008-12-23T11:13:00.002+08:002008-12-23T11:22:15.502+08:00back to my seat again...<br /><br />i remember silly question i asked my mom when i was little....<br /><br />-black n white-<br /><br />"mak dulu2 xde kaler ye? sume itam putih ye? cane mak pilih baju?"<br /><br />blame it on black n white movies...<br /><br />-moon-<br /><br />"mak, bulan tu suka kat eli kan? dia selalu ikut eli..kat rumah..dalam kereta..."<br /><br />even when i was in france last week...bulan mmg sgt suka eli...smpai eli besar...<br /><br /><br />am i ready? am i doing the right thing? will i be happy?<br /><br />i wish............i can ask silly question again......<br />without being silly....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2639799443850783823?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-61195249844204215932008-12-17T05:12:00.002+08:002008-12-17T05:19:46.134+08:00winter last year:<br /><br />sejuk2....at norwich<br /><br />winter this year:<br /><br />sejuk2...at toulouse<br /><br />16th dec last year:<br /><br />spending final day at uk counting for Malaysia...watching TV, masak2 with roza.<br /><br />16th dec, today:<br /><br />trying to understand torque ECU concept with man. and counting for malaysia...hehehe...<br /><br />final weekend before christmas last year:<br /><br />bayswater for kebab n samosa, greenwich chilling, heathrow...balik!!!!<br /><br />final weekend before christmas this year:<br /><br />jalan at paris (ke mana...we'll see), charles de gaulle...balik!!!<br /><br /><br />see the connection?<br /><br />next year? ntah...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6119524984420421593?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-2500547644492662022008-10-04T20:55:00.002+08:002008-10-04T20:58:59.016+08:00sakit perut...hukhukhukhuk...<br /><br />perut majuk...makan byk sgt patu perut majuk.....<br /><br />padan muka....<br /><br />this raya...<br /><br />1) no kek lapis asam - xde masa nak buat<br />2) byk jalan2 - semangat raya berkobar2<br />3) malas nak keje balik - heeeeeee<br />4) kurang tgk tv - raya kena bermaafan, bkn tgk tv.<br />5) raya last before kawin????!!!!??? - hmmm...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-250054764449266202?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-20866339290303809782008-09-26T21:25:00.003+08:002008-09-26T21:36:22.207+08:00i'm exhausted..........<br /><br />if anybody ask me...what do u think about taiwan....<br /><br />i can only answer, i knew ITRI and a motel at taichung.........other than these 2, sorry to say, i didn't have time to observe.....<br /><br />but, i learnt that its important to have enough knowledge...<br />and it's important to have enough patience and confidence..<br /><br />and muka alya kat facebook kak mas...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2086633929030380978?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-54624530355760373742008-09-08T11:55:00.003+08:002008-09-08T11:59:42.423+08:00nak dok bawah meja...buat keja sorang2...xmo ckp ngan sesapa...tutup lampu...duduk diam2...<br /><br /><br />hati rasa cam...cekodok.........................................makan.........abes dah ati...........masuk dalam perut...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5462453035576037374?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-44222085186028321592008-08-06T23:21:00.002+08:002008-08-06T23:27:44.228+08:001 - flow meter dah jumpa...malam ni bole tido lena...huahahahahaha<br />2 - mmg trend kot skarang org ada 2 hanpon...as for me...1 maxis yg mmg no saya lah...n 1 g...walkie talkie saya ngan din...ni lah nasib...sape suh keje jauh2? sib baik celcom ada plan 1+3...n sib baik kakak saya keje celcom...dapat no cantik...<br />3 - saya dah jadi tamak...pesan 1...din suh pilih 2...tapi saya nak 3...nak sume...sume cumil...nak 3 beg...x kira...nak 3.....cane nak pilih 2 kalo ati suke sume? cane? so...kena amik sume..3 beg..weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee<br /><br /><br />nak tido...mata bulat....<br />mari kita kira kambing....<br /><br />1 kambing...2 kambing...3 kambing...4 kambing....aik....ada lembu la.........<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-4422208518602832159?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-60494731185061068842008-07-18T03:11:00.002+08:002008-07-18T03:32:44.073+08:00snow...snow....<br />its actually kelemumur...bila garu2..pastu jatuh berguguran umpama snow...just like din always describe it...<br />saya ada snow...patut kena mandi...syampoo...syampoo...tp nk amik feel dulu...<br /><br />nasik at last after 6 days...setelah nekad besama cik rina..meredah tanah llanelli yg mcm pekan mati nih...mencari halal indian food take-away...bersesat2 mencari adnan tikka kat murray street yang mmg x bejaya jumpa pn...tp..kalo dah rezeki tu...jumpa lak zara kat thomas street = eli si ular sawa...briyani udang + sambal tempe mak...heaven...<br /><br />sok jumaat dah...kena keje kul 6 lagik..stress......<br />tp a last...norwich...final stop b4 balik...best betul...eventho...mebi xde internet dah pasni...tp...untuk 4 hari + ada diner dash...ok kot...<br /><br />pasni xnk g oversea dah...for at least 6 bulan....xcept for holiday la kan...<br />CWT: Climatic wind tunnel...what can i say....PANAS!!!!<br /><br />am i going to miss wales????<br /><br />hmmm...cardiff ye kot...kena tinggal tepi jalan kat balai polis xde org.....patu jalan smpai bole lukis peta cardiff....pastu ada bunyi seagull pepagi, memula mcm sweet...tp pastu.....................rasa cam nk sembelih...bising betul..<br /><br />llanelli???? terus tebayang tuna sandwich with sweetcorn...ikan disaster chef x reti masak n xtau apa itu halia...n my 1st ever nasik in wales....<br /><br />nak datang sini lagi ke? hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.............susah nk jawab tuh..<br /><br />tp...at least tau dah mana nak carik nasik :)<br /><br /><br />MANDI ELI.....MANDI.....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6049473118506106884?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-9163425960655599292008-07-16T01:36:00.002+08:002008-07-16T01:47:20.153+08:00hari ini hari selasa...skang dh kul 7...<br />sok hari rabu....saya kena keje dr kul 6 pagi until 10 malam...bangun kul 5? no prob...mata saya mata malaysia...tp...tido kul 11? alamak...mata saya mata malaysia...<br />pastu hari kamis...<br />pastu hari jumaat...<br />g norwich...weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....at last...nasik!!!!!!<br />pastu sabtu...jalan...pastu ahad...jalan lagi...pastu isnin...lotus!!!!<br />yang penting...pastu kul 4 pagi saya g airport pastu kul 6 insyaAllah...saya tebang pulang...<br />pastu rabu insyaAllah...sy smpai mesia...x sabar betul...pulang....<br /><br />cardiff-llanelli-norwich....saya mmg sgt suka malaysia...mati kutu saya disini....<br /><br />>-->-O pengsan....<br /><br />saya xnk tukar mata saya jd mata uk...ngantuk dah..kul 1.41 dah...kena tido ni...hmmm...my sweet escape...tp....tiap kali bgn tido...trus rasa nk balik..cane? cane? cane?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-916342596065559929?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-67861187591992501852008-07-11T12:56:00.002+08:002008-07-11T13:02:25.725+08:00apa yg saya rasa sekarang?<br /><br />saya malas nk g jauh..<br />saya malas nk kemas beg...<br />saya malas nk pk byk...<br />saya malas psl nnt for sure saya homesick, katilsick, tvsick, makabahsick, dinsick, sume sick ahhh....<br /><br />saya cuma nak dok umah n rehat...<br />tgk tv...<br />pegi yoga...<br />tunggu din balik...<br />main ngan alya n danish..<br />tgk gossip girl hari rabu...<br />grey's anatomy hari sabtu...<br />tgk AXN non stop ngan E! channel gak....<br /><br />saya mebi ok kalo...<br />mak abah ikut...<br />din ikut...<br />bole bawak astro skalik...<br />girafah, kucing, ngan badak jgk...<br /><br />pendek kata...saya sayang comfort zone saya...n saya mmg xde mood...<br /><br />eli...<br />igt pesan kawan2...<br />dapat duit kawin tu...bole buat bayar beg coach :)<br />motivasi...<br />positif...<br /><br />yakin boleh...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6786118759199250185?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-83860254647958725242008-07-07T22:42:00.002+08:002008-07-07T22:56:32.890+08:00to trust...to commit...to listen...to observe...and loyalty...<br /><br />people always said..don't trust a book by its cover..means that we can't trust people from what we see...we can't trust surface...<br /><br />how 'bout someone that we thought we knew..we thought we can trust...but then they betray the trust? they break everything with 1 stupid reason...they just being selfish...<br />someone that we thought was a friend..our someone that we think can guide us..<br />someone that we've known for years...<br /><br />for me...its important to observe...and its not wrong to be xtra careful...<br /><br />if this really happens...when someone we knew is not what we think they are...should we continue...<br /><br />to trust?<br /><br />to stay loyal?<br /><br />we always have choices...the least we can choose is to guide and to be a friend...<br />and remind them...that Justin Timberlake is right when he said...what goes around comes around...<br /><br />XOXO...<br />-bantal busuk-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-8386025464795872524?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-28820571894789375642008-06-27T14:39:00.002+08:002008-06-27T14:44:37.053+08:00hmmm........<br />............................<br />.....................................<br />..........................................<br />..............................................<br />.....................................................<br />.........................................................<br /><br />apa lagi saya bole cakap?<br /><br />-xdepe-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2882057189478937564?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-81086931744783872622008-06-19T22:33:00.002+08:002008-06-19T22:38:43.693+08:00i need to type fast..only 17% battery remains..<br /><br />my pc n me..same conditions..low batt..i guess what i need now is sleep...<br /><br />>-->-O eli tido..pantas2...battery dh nk abes....<br /><br />eli n pc...<br />preparing to hibernate...<br /><br />*mengarut sungguh dia nih*<br />*i dedicate this chapter to 'sleep'*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-8108693174478387262?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-21825463356035865582008-06-02T22:32:00.002+08:002008-06-02T22:57:19.865+08:00my 2nd entry for today...i guess...blog ni je la tpt ngadu...<br />bila hati asik sedih, bila asik rasa nak marah...what sould we do?<br /><br />what i did today...my mind was hibernated all day...did yoga..play with alya...n juz finish kemas bilik macam org gila...not a single habuk exist...pasni...iron baju...n then...let see...<br /><br />i just want to sleep until.........until when? <br /><br />until........hati x sedih lagi...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2182546335603586558?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-40952082010197305942008-06-02T09:08:00.002+08:002008-06-02T14:00:03.282+08:00zaf told me, there's a phrase in Quran saying something like, if there's a man that worth a devotion, that's a husband...<br /><br />proven, seorang hubby mmg sgt tinggi darjatnya..<br /><br />how to know whether we've met the right person?<br />is it the love that we felt?<br />the happiness?<br />the so called "chemistry"? <br />the way we tolerate?<br />the "pengorbanan"?<br />or the way we understand each other...<br /><br />how do we know? wait until dah kahwin? <br /><br />sometimes people just said, they just know its the right person...but how do they know?<br />ada bintang2 kat keliling muka that person ke? <br /><br />n people will advice me..buat la istikarah...<br />i remember the last time i perform istikarah...i ended being single for 1 year...<br />the "happy period"<br /><br />i remembered last week...RAGE..feels like "membelasah" org, hantuk kepala kat meja..<br />how about this week? 1st day...ok sket...sedih byk..pikir lagi byk...<br /><br />eli bepikir.....eli bepikir....eli bepikir....<br /><br />.... >-->O ....eli pikir smpai pengsan..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-4095208201019730594?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-60256285269732243392008-05-11T20:34:00.004+08:002008-05-12T11:57:05.244+08:00this is how i describe my relationship with my darling...soothing like earl grey tea, delicious like sushi and sometimes sting like wasabe...but lucky..when we mixed wasabe with japanese soy sauce, and treat it as dip for sushi...and we enjoy it with green tea...i call it perfect. but need to admit, too much wasabe sometimes can cause tears..<br /><br />i know when my dindon reads this he has no idea what it feels like..since sushi, green tea and wasabe is not his type..and he just learnt about earl grey lately..but its ok...<br />kita mmg mcm langit ngan bumi pun..i just want u to know...<br /><br />terima kasih pasal sabar dgn saya yang weng nih...<br />terima kasih pasal sabar dgn saya yang hangin satu badan nih...<br />terima kasih pasal rajin dgr saya yang terlebih cakap nih..<br />terima kasih pasal x penah berenti care pasal saya eventho time tu saya tgh dingdong...<br />terima kasih for my "zoo"..nk kangaroo ngan gajah lak pasni...zirafah pn ok gak...*hint*<br />terima kasih pasal selalu fikir untuk saya...<br /><br />last skali...terima kasih pasal xkisah bila saya dah gebu cket..u're the best ah...<br /><br /><br />p/s: i love you...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6025628526973224339?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-2853300756487226492008-05-08T15:03:00.002+08:002008-05-08T15:14:12.770+08:00“As I travel the world, teaching the Mars and Venus insights, I have witnessed a new trend in relationships linked to increasing stress. Both couples and singles believe they are too busy or too exhausted to resolve their relationship issues, and often think their partners are either too demanding or just too different to understand. Attempting to cope with the increasing stress of working for a living, both men and women feel neglected at home. While some couples experience increasing tension, others have just given up, sweeping their emotional needs under the carpet. <em>They may get along, but the passion is gone</em>.” -author of why mars n venus collide-<br /><br />reading the above statement for times...thinking once, twice, 3 times...i'm stucked...i'm not supposed to think deeply, but i did..<br />and i'm supposed to go to ED to discuss on purge system...but i write my blog...n i should enjoying sampai syurga from faizal tahir...but instead..i questioned myself, is there such thing? sampai syurga....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-285330075648722649?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-43936205776568849492008-05-07T22:16:00.004+08:002008-05-07T22:58:44.966+08:00suddenly rindu nk bebel kat sini..wat to type eh...byk sgt smpai xtau mana nak stat...hmmm....<br /><br />lets start with LOVE..dulu tgk cerita CINTA kat wayang sorg2 pastu nangis...x malu..dah tua bangka pn nangis...n now..there's LOVE..nak tgk ke x ye..its been a while since last wayang..before g uk lagi kot...mcm dah nak 8 bulan x tgk wayang..g sorang lagi ke? pro: kalo 'ter'nangis..x ah malu sgt..cons: org lain tgk semacam..but..who cares...<br /><br />holiday..jiwa mcm dah sket kacau..jiwa kacau as in i was considering on botakkan kepala gara2 kelemumur n panas..n kat kuwait g makan 2 snickers n 2 kinder bueno 1 shot smbil tgk tv..okeh..time tu hati pedih + jiwa kacau + mati kutu n coklat murah...bila last g cuti? bandung...lama tu..uk: my so called working honeymoon? xnk include..skarang dah may...patut la mcm dah nk mengong..kena plan dah nih..nk cuti lama2..g jalan2..tp...kena kumpul duit..arghhh...<br /><br />for now..mari kita mengisi masa...lets make our life more meaningful..<br /><br />this song reminds me off hot tea and hari lepas hujan... <br />~thinking off..1 day off juz to lepak @ mana2 coffee house, minum teh panas n baca buku n hopefully time tu hari lepas hujan~<br /><br /><br /><object width="300" height="80"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/m/HYQ0Jsh_IO/aus=false/"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://media.imeem.com/m/HYQ0Jsh_IO/aus=false/" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="300" height="110" wmode="transparent"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-4393620577656884949?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-73919836683499289982008-04-22T21:37:00.003+08:002008-04-22T21:44:32.700+08:00hati saya melompat2 dengan gembira kerana akhirnya saya di Malaysia...<br /><br />saya tersenyum...<br /><br />saya tenang...<br /><br />saya...<br /><br /><br />~enjoying malaysia~<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-7391983668349928998?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-56688006374897416752008-04-18T15:22:00.003+08:002008-04-18T16:42:53.151+08:00feels like dah 2 bulan kat sini..gila lama ahh..kuwait n qatar...personally i enjoy qatar more..ye ke?? sama je actually. cume qatar better psl ada wifi dlm bilik..kuwait, kena g cafe baru ada wifi..seminggu je baru..tp terasa lama giler ahh...i'm stucked here..cant wait for sunday to come..stress dah ni..<br /><br />today, aredi jumaat...tomoro sabtu, and then ahad...pastu pulang..pergh...tebayang pun dah buat hati gumbira...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5668800637489741675?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com28tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-7318914749669045482008-04-13T00:21:00.003+08:002008-04-13T00:40:46.641+08:00saya jet lag...saya mual...saya dah muntah sekali...saya tgh tahan mata xmo tido...sy x lalu makan...saya nak balik...saya dok kira hari...kepala saya pusing2...saya nak kambing saya...<br />~a bold confession of a young Proton's engineer on her 1st day of surviving GCC~<br /><br />urghhh....slalu cani...homesick..seminggu je pun sempat homesick lagi...<br />the first 1-3 days..mmg tough ahh...g mana2 pn sama jek..stress ahhh cani...giler sejuk ekon bilik ni..dah la xleh mkn, kalo x muntah..lg ahh stress....ngantuk..tp xleh tido..kalo x jet lag...<br />~a grumpy young engineer on her 1st day of surviving GCC~<br /><br />seminggu je li...seminggu je li...seminggu je li...u can do it...u can do it...go gal..go gal...<br />~the new mantra of a young engineer on her 1st day of surviving GCC~<br /><br />ngantuk giler ah...pedulik ah jet lag...<br />Nite qatar!!!!!!!!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-731891474966904548?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-30083087757060194222008-04-10T15:36:00.003+08:002008-04-10T15:42:46.493+08:00skype credit: checked<br />account availability: checked<br />voipstunt credit: checked<br />account availability: not checked, but...ok la kot...<br />duit: hmmm.....bila nk dapat advance nih....<br />knowledge: hopefully enough la...<br /><br />wisdom words: maintain la eli...seminggu je...u can do it la baby....<br /><br />now: damn sleepy...time lunch td x lak ngantuk cenggini...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-3008308775706019422?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-17231680200249495262008-03-19T21:58:00.002+08:002008-03-19T22:19:16.526+08:00not being myself lately...<br /><br />grand canyon<br />big orange wall...orange..i always want to go there. to witness it myself..snap a few pictures, n go back home...ever since i dreamt about it years ago...the great grand canyon...bukan ada apa pun, batu oren jek...<br /><br />nyanyian serambi<br />one of my fav song...the only song that i agree wit abah when he said, "sedap lagu ni"....unfortunately i failed to download it until now...<br /><br />andai kasturi hilang harum..<br />mawar x berkuntum..<br />cinta x bersambung..<br />biar emas setinggi gunung..<br />kan ku peluk rimbun ampun...<br />rahmat yg Maha Agung...<br /><br />nyanyi sendiri je la...<br /><br />burger shop, here i come!!!!!!!<br /><br />-fin-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-1723168020024949526?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-29004612590891473632008-03-18T12:42:00.002+08:002008-03-18T12:55:53.014+08:00EOBD to date: siap!!!!!!!! tinggal nk compile jek..woooohooooo...x sia2 segala usaha bekerja dgn penuh cergas dan bersemangat...<br /><br />but still..hati x berapa hepi...nape??? ntah...<br /><br />my new interest..alya n danish..haihh...cute betul budak2 tu...1 mcm bola..1 sgt cool..kalo hari2 dok umah main dgn diorg pn sanggup...rindu dah...terasa mcm nk balik..<br /><br />main layang2 kt tepi laut pada waktu tgh hari di hari ahad...best...panas...layang2 senang tebang...pastu belagak hero dpn dina n kakak2 dia yg berbakat melepaskan layang2...terasa mcm hero jap...<br /><br />tp...still hati x berapa hepi...<br /><br />burger shop dah masuk expert story..n main without tikus...guna touch pad jek..giler terer ah...<br /><br />shopaholic n baby..finally abes baca...n tgk oggy n lipas2 ahad pagi...<br /><br />still hati x berapa hepi..wat should i do more?<br /><br />kena g pancing udang lak kot pasni...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2900461259089147363?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-69951501749203581382008-03-14T08:37:00.004+08:002008-03-14T08:44:17.373+08:00not very happy..<br /><br /><br /><br /><object width="300" height="80"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/m/nALg8ZgBHP/aus=false/"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://media.imeem.com/m/nALg8ZgBHP/aus=false/" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="300" height="80" wmode="transparent"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6995150174920358138?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-24500594426689306092008-03-10T23:24:00.002+08:002008-03-10T23:30:37.598+08:00bantal: me love<br />bunga: me like<br />kambing: me miss<br />eli: me self<br /><br />my mind is sumwhere else...arghhh!!!!!!! <br />tido ah..sok keje..<br /><br />dear bantal,<br />please lessen all the kegebuan..<br /><br />dear bunga,<br />keep it up..keep it up...wangi...bunge...<br /><br />dear kambing,<br />stay like that..dont change yourself...walaupun kambing busuk, tp kambing kiut...<br /><br />dear eli,<br />hehehe...silly me...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2450059442668930609?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-46417850769512173612008-03-04T10:48:00.004+08:002008-03-04T10:52:54.420+08:00lately, these questions always lingering in my mind...<br /><br />kenapa counter MT x count? kenapa ada delay before count? kenapa keta AT x camtu pun?<br />kenapa payah sgt nak set windows keta MT? kenapa? kenapa? kenapa? n last skali...sempat ke nak siap ni?<br /><br />tabah eli tabah....sempat li...sempat...<br />nak guillaume....<br /><br /><br />nak tido...<br /><br /><br /><br />nak cuti...<br /><br /><br /><br />nak makan asam pedas.....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-4641785076951217361?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-10212084510261787072008-02-26T22:30:00.002+08:002008-02-26T22:40:49.012+08:00nothing much to write...what happened to me lately? saya sakit..demam virus..kurang dosa saya...alhamdulillah...<br /><br />hmmm...i dont really like myself lately..not being independent like before. i noticed that lately i've become "eli yg spoil" again..huhhhh...<br /><br />should i?<br /><br />nyepi semula...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-1021208451026178707?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-14113930543851254572008-02-10T21:11:00.000+08:002008-02-10T21:21:15.365+08:00<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_KlMMncGApxo/R675rsC77HI/AAAAAAAAACk/Pi6vqETFWaY/s1600-h/Photo-0146.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_KlMMncGApxo/R675rsC77HI/AAAAAAAAACk/Pi6vqETFWaY/s200/Photo-0146.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5165340351593704562" /></a><br /><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_KlMMncGApxo/R675ucC77II/AAAAAAAAACs/THMnZ0wKZ1M/s1600-h/Photo-0165.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_KlMMncGApxo/R675ucC77II/AAAAAAAAACs/THMnZ0wKZ1M/s200/Photo-0165.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5165340398838344834" /></a><br />the 21st and the 22nd..<br />the 23rd? expecting end of feb or early march...<br /><br />but now...i'm torn between these two...suka...baby..suka...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-1411393054385125457?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-56649678633271436162008-01-25T22:26:00.000+08:002008-01-25T23:03:25.156+08:00<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_KlMMncGApxo/R5n6IxMFoMI/AAAAAAAAACc/mJ0xa1O_7No/s1600-h/uk+211.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_KlMMncGApxo/R5n6IxMFoMI/AAAAAAAAACc/mJ0xa1O_7No/s200/uk+211.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5159429876679549122" /></a><br /><br />after 1 month: <br />feels like a bit mature since i got back from uk (or maybe perasan diri dah mature)..but uk really taught me a lot..jiwa kacau? no more...in total control now..i've got my groove back...ingat balik dah function gredi..hehehe...eventho, every weekend pn stadi balik diagnostic...series lupa...not <em>lemau</em> anymore. perhaps a bit <em>lemau</em> but not totally...<br /><br />cinta dalam hati:<br />(^_^) i think its obvious...perhaps not too obvious. blame it on EOBD diagnostic and...myself. i really have this "muka berkaliber dan mari kita sorokkan apa yg kita rasa" face..yeah..eli perasan lagi.cinta dalam hati?? my advice? lets be nice to everybody...<br /><br />things that i miss about norwich:<br />satu je. kelancaran lalulintas a.k.a no traffic jam..i missed that a lot....n not to forget...malam yang panjang..a total bonus for me and my passion for sleeping..<br />telepas nk tgk itik kena langgar dgn keta lotus kat test track :( <br />what a waste....<br /><br />me tonite:<br />i'm blessed..to have someone that loves me a lot after all these years, my "not in mood" for everything, my era of "do not disturb", the hiding and lost..<br />tata my comfort zone...i guessed i'm ready for something new (see...mature dah budak nih)<br />finally...i smiles again. what goes around really comes around..<br /><br />so again..my advice people, eventho we dont know what's the best for us, be nice to everyone...and believe, that 1 day..everyone will do the same...<br /><br />my advice for myself:<br />kalo pas ni rasa empty or sedih lagik or miserable or dlm era kegelapan or jiwa kacau or pape la...p merayu kat bos2 suh anta jauh2 n lama2 so that boleh muhasabah diri n jadi mature...<br />there's no such thing as xde perasaan...its just a matter of time, berani or takut, ready or tak n...ngade2 xnak hati rasa sedih..so, block sume benda..<br />not good....<br />reminder: experience is the best teacher ever...<br /><br />~eli mmg dah mature...i'm so proud~<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5664967863327143616?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-24213878348443577372008-01-21T17:37:00.000+08:002008-01-21T17:48:17.715+08:00at last...in peace..i lost it once but now, i found it again..in the same form but different way..my heart is smiling...<br /><br />hujan lebat betul ni..hmmm...totally in peace..until.......<br />EOBD IAFM, BLM market, etc.... nyebok betul benda2 nih..~sigh~<br /><br />~for the love of hari lepas hujan~<br />~remembering; i was 5, gazing at rainbow while eating rainbow ice-cream (walls)~<br />~imagining; another ice-cream~<br />~imagining....nothing...~<br />~in total peace~<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2421387834844357737?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-11000412855433127622008-01-15T14:23:00.001+08:002008-01-15T14:33:15.886+08:00jiwa kacau - muka stress - dingdongdingdong....<br /><br />take life easily but too easily. what happened lately?<br />i have approximately around 1 year left to "dingdong"ing before time's out.<br /><br />shoot...no idea what to write lah..<br /><br />~bunyi cengkerik~<br />~sampai esok pagi~<br />~for the love of food and sleep~<br />~damn...mcm dah gemuk~<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-1100041285543312762?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-49661864030692576972008-01-07T12:59:00.000+08:002008-01-07T13:46:06.689+08:00the 'want', the 'need' and the 'feel'<br /><br />coldplay's fix you - when you get what you want and but not what you need.<br /> <br />the difference between both??? how to differentiate??? and how to feel that it is right or wrong??? the thing that we want..and what we need..<br />arghhh...confuse...<br /> <br />let's talk about feel..<br />maria always said, kita kena amik feel dulu before buat something..she's totally right..dengan feel itu, apa yg kita lakukan akan terasa lebih nikmat dan bersungguh..<br />my friend, maria, she's like the psycho that can read people's intention. the words that she always use.."aku ada feel yg...." and i'm like.."what feel? ko tgk kat mana?".."ada la. ko budak kecik. mana ko tau.."<br /><br />what feel? seriously..where to look? the eye? the air muka? the body language? apa yg tersirat n tersurat? that's my weakest point..i need something direct and straight forward to understand<br />another close friend of mine said..since i have this ability to show 'muka stone aka emotionless face' until people think that i'm cold-hearted (that's what they call me back then..dingin, beku, xde perasaan), thats the reason why i cant read other people's emotion..<br />ye ke?????? <br />pro muka stone: org xtau apa kita rasa...cons: kita xtau apa org rasa...<br /><br />fair enough...<br />whatever lah...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-4966186403069257697?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-67221127874311450272007-12-19T23:51:00.000+08:002007-12-20T00:28:05.547+08:00i'm soooooo into lagu cinta dalam hati by ungu...konon2 mcm frust la...kononnye la kan...<br />my luggage to date? 23kg++..hand luggage? 13kg kot..strategy nk lepas kastam...buat muka student, senyum a lot, check-in awal, bawak cash 20pound je, pakai serabut2...n wish sume org merry christmas!!!! (dalam hati..doa byk2) -i've become a luggage freak-<br /><br />lately,<br />bila sume org (friends) plan nak kawen very soon but not that soon, i join them too. the more the merrier..plan..baik punya plan..bila makcik2 pn dah ikut nk plan (siap cucuk2 mak lagi), kita plan lagi advance..like, what colour, where to shopping (my sista dah ada list dah), what date...080808 mcm sgt fofular...20082008 pn fofular gak...my wedding planner to date? my 2 sistas, my sistas in law, my anak2, my mum (leader), my makciks n pakciks, n kezens...tenkiu abang2 kerana membiarkan hidup saya aman...<br />my calon to date? ....................................................<br />can u hear cengkerik? i thought like i just heard one...<br /><br />my wedding plan to date? wallahh....berapi...kalah org nk kawen esok..i told my mum, my kaler tema, merah + hitam...wahahahahaha...giler evil..tp tu plan je la kan..plan ke? x pun..saja nk nyebok..amik feel...<br /><br />my short term plan? nak goda pakcik kastam kat airport biar bg lepas luggage overweight..tu ah..time beli2 x pk sume tu...tp...buku kat sini murah..cane?<br />nak kedip2 mata, senyum2, buat muka innocent (yg selalunye dpt tipu famili gue)..n sume ni, akan dilaksanakan pada hari ahad..with my ability to mengorat.....mcm xde harapan...~hopeless eli~<br /><br />my mid term plan? cuti2..jalan2..tido2....apa mid term plan? ntah...<br /><br />my azam tahun baru? saya ingin menambah ketinggian dan anak2...20 to 22...uikkk...nak kena buat tabung duit raya dah ni...<br /><br />my brain now? shutting down..i'm back home..i'm floating...i'm flying...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6722112787431145027?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-62643089309207567702007-12-16T05:23:00.000+08:002007-12-16T06:14:13.534+08:00another week...hmmm...the luggage? blame it to 20kg limit by MAS n heathrow airport. i'm so tense rite now...thinking bout the luggage...books that i bought, hand blender, add up everything...20kg++...arggghhhhh....<br />i forbid myself from further shopping. that's it. enough...<br /><br />positive side...<br />another week to go...hohoho..at last..my makabah, my anak2, my bed, my neo, my..everything. i wanna watch enchanted, resident evil, back to back cinema/dvd (if i'm not too sleepy during the day), take the picture of eye of malaysia, lepak with the gals, watch astro...normal life. again. <br />my comfort zone.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6264308930920756770?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-71929687909614149782007-12-12T16:42:00.000+08:002007-12-12T17:26:57.244+08:00this time, next 2 week, insyaAllah, i will be at a very different place. warmer..<br /><br />i learn a lot lately. but what i really treasure is, i can drive manual car in this wheather..really proud of myself...<br />i learn to appreciate..everything..every little things that i have..<br />and i think i'm healed..in sense that, i learned more about myself..<br />and believe that everything is ok..<br />and a smile, is never a waste..<br /><br /><em>"You have to do the best with what God gave you." - Forrest Gump's mama</em><br /><br /><br /><br /><object width="300" height="80"><param name="movie" 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week report...but, the thought of malaysia early in the morning made me feels like writing this..<br />its been 5 weeks..3 more weeks to go..i already list the meal i want to eat once i get back..on top of the list...tempe goreng..followed by, masak lemak sayur, kicap bilal, n i really missed ikan kembung...<br />fish here? very classy..ikan laut utara yg x berpeluh, kaya dgn minyak omega, sah2 hancur kalo masak kari..ikan scott emulsion..<br />duhhh...i'm just a simple budak jawa who loves tempe..<br />what if i call mak at this hour? sure dia tekezut..x tido lagi anak aku ni...hehehe...sok je la...eh jap...tunggu kul 3 ptg kang la...time mak tgh tgk cite liontin..kaco mak tgk tv..heeee...jahat betul anak dia...<br /><br />waaa...kul seploh dah ni...tulis report eli, pastu tido..sok keje...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2750610579109788818?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-53361560034753639562007-11-28T16:44:00.000+08:002007-11-28T17:00:22.073+08:00listening to my new indon-malay-english playlist...suka..pandai eli pilih lagu...<br />currently, amik feel nak buat INCA 101-INCA for dummy..balik kang kena ajar bebudak tu..so, kena buat user manual utk diri sendiri dulu..<br /><br />how about me? seseme...sakit tekak...batuk...my voice? its either sengau or rockers...idong blocked ah..ingus beku dah...<br />4 weeks to go..n then, warm air...warm water..no more peti ais...englishmen, depa pakai 5 lapis baju..padan la nmpak macho..kita org malaysia ni, pakai 2 lapis je...today? saya pakai 4 lapis..hehehehe...kena jaga diri sendiri, jgn smpai demam...jadi doktor diri sendiri..mak xde nk manja2...<br /><br />okeh, dapat feel dah..INCA 101, here i come...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5336156003475363956?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-14873295702028195512007-11-23T00:25:00.000+08:002007-11-23T00:42:14.423+08:00my brain is basically overload...<br />with proton-lotus problem (which they said, don't think bout it) - i'm the victim here..of course i'll think about it..what if suddenly proton say, balik skarang!!<br />nak kemas beg lagik..satu hal..tukar tiket..2 hal...hadiah abah x carik lagik...sib baik mak setel dah..<br />with matlab block diagram...nice...kotak2...arrow2...pastu pusing2..pastu susun2..pastu...ntah..overload...<br />alamak..abes dah coklat...need more...lapar ah..<br />with INCA, yg user friendly but according to justin, its confusing somehow..n ralph..owh..i didn't know inca can do that..me? try n error..mcm dulu2 time memula guna gredi..tekan je pape..<br />huuu...rindu ah gredi..pcavs..winflash..pdt..blm..apa kabar keta tebakar tu ah?? hmmm<br /><br />smalam, nak kfc..arini, nak nasik ayam, sok...nak apa tah...<br />sambal belacan dapat dah, sotong jugak, ikan jugak, nasik lemak gak, thanks kakak malaysian hall..sedap betul..rm3.50 utk sambal belacan n timun..xpe, sy bayar...hehehe...kemaruk sambal belacan..<br />imagining: nasik + sayur masak lemak putih + ikan kembung goreng + sambal belacan..<br />nice...<br />imagining: nasik + kicap bilal + ikan kembung goreng + ulam...<br />nice...<br /><br />~smiling~<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-1487329570202819551?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-84286724134170751472007-11-16T20:09:00.000+08:002007-11-16T20:32:49.105+08:003 minggu dah...5 more weeks to go..i'm counting weeks, it has single digit in it..if days...35 more days..lama tuh...<br /><br />missed my bed badly, automatic car (neoku), Oggy dan lipas2 (katun perancis hari ahad kul 9 pagi ntv7)..<br /><br />here, ulat2 resdung tidak mengganas (beku kot ulat2 tu), tp...seafood pn jarang jumpa...belacan, xde..udang kering, xde...can u imagine my miserability?<br /><br />4 or 5 of my friends are getting married and i'm not be able to attend it..obviously...when is my turn ah? nak kawen gak...malas la nk drive g keje ngadap jam hari2...tgk zaf jeles jek...ada org drivekan..<br />maria n acong pn dah menjadi...ejen dia ni, single lagik ni...kena buat fast track ah one day. potong sume org...bak kata sarah, kena ada planning..bila SOP, DQCM, PQCM, etc..n if it involves mat saleh, the list will be longer..hmmmm...<br />elehh...taun lepas buat planning gak..last2...tecampak kat sini..becinta..dgn enjen..huhhh...nk kata loser, x, nak kata ok, pn x gak...kat sini, kejenye, gayut ngan mak hari2..tp ok pe...anak yg baik tu namanye..<br />lapar ah...makan je kejenye..abes ah gemuk cani...asik2 coklat2..asik2 coklat..tp best...coklat x cair...keras je..suka...<br /><br />arghhh...the weather makes me even more mengarut than normal..kembali ke pangkal jalan eli...kembali...<br />huhhh...abes keje dah...jalan2...suka...g jalan...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-8428672413417075147?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-31433981238246435132007-11-13T20:25:00.000+08:002007-11-13T20:29:39.515+08:00<object width="300" height="80"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/m/X_o3IpurPF/aus=false/"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://media.imeem.com/m/X_o3IpurPF/aus=false/" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="300" height="80" wmode="transparent"></embed></object><br /><br />kalo bole buat ringtone kan best...hehehehe...<br />hatiku berbunga2...<br /><br />3 bulan lepas..eli n en. daud...dok argue psl tajuk lagu nih...en daud betul..<br />joget2!!!<br />uikk...lunch time..makan...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-3143398123824643513?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-1111975255448675902007-11-13T01:01:00.000+08:002007-11-13T01:21:28.940+08:00its the most frequent question i ask roza and vice versa..makan ape ahh?? masak ape ahh???...n everyday, we will spend 5-10 mins planning our meals and 15-20 mins mesmerizing our fridge and cabinets (the contains)... planning what to buy, which to to give, to who..gift to anak2...toy la...and abg haq wants me to send his regards to mr. bean..i need to find encik kacang..kat mana ah...<br /><br />today i spend around 1 hour trying to digest all the info mark gave (in our 2 1/2 hours training)..control systems, block diagram, MATLAB..feels like i'm back to my uni era which i left almost 2 years ago..feels like i'm doing my final project but only for 8 weeks, n need to understand everything...skolah balik nih...<br /><br />positif thinking..kereta gen2...engine campro..plus..IDU, APS, Battery, 2 clutches, CVT, a lot of control units, touch screen, extra pumps, 1 starter/alternator, etc..n the engine bay looks really complicated (don't want to imagine the wiring harness), the engine shifted to the left a bit..the car battery is in the trunk...x lah teruk sgt kan...<br /><br />i guess i need to do a lot of my theraphy sessions (shopping n jalan2)....pulang...<br /><br />suhu skarang ialah..max 7..min 1...huuhuuhuuu...gegegege...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-111197525544867590?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-26608589530866784452007-11-11T05:02:00.000+08:002007-11-11T06:13:48.471+08:00the song is actually from the new coco chanel advertisement..<br />it's juz too catchy..no personal reason..<br /><blockquote><p>L is for the way you look at me<br />O is for the only one I see<br />V is very very extraordinary<br />E is even more than anyone that you adore and love </p><p><br />It's all that I can give to you<br />Love is more than just a game for two<br />Two in love can make it<br />Take my heart but please don't break it<br />Love was made for me and you</p><p> </p></blockquote><br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/14GXk01PMkc&rel=1"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/14GXk01PMkc&rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2660858953086678445?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-88885525184751082362007-11-06T21:18:00.000+08:002007-11-06T21:37:44.064+08:00<span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;">[12:54] abanghaq10: ada web cam tak<br /></span>[12:54] elisunar: eli kat opis xde webcam<br />[12:54] elisunar: kat umah je ada webcam n headset<br />[12:55] elisunar: x bwk laptop g opis<br />[12:55] elisunar: berat<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[12:55] abanghaq10: ada voice call tak</span><br />[12:55] elisunar: kat umah la..<br />[12:55] elisunar: sume complete<br />[12:55] elisunar: hehehehe<br />[12:55] elisunar: masa...tolak 8 dr malaysia<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[12:56] abanghaq10: mak dah sampai umah acun</span><br />[12:56] elisunar: umah ancun ada internet ke?<br />[12:57] elisunar: uik??<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[12:57] abanghaq10: ada yg free dari umah kak nani<br />[12:57] abanghaq10: pakai wifi<br /></span>[12:57] elisunar: oooo...<br />[12:57] elisunar: x ilang2 pulak...<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[12:57] abanghaq10: kalau kat umah mak curi umi punya<br />[12:58] abanghaq10: wa dah setting baik punya </span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[12:59] abanghaq10: tapi umi punya wifi tu selalu on &amp; off </span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[12:59] abanghaq10: mak tanya u nak makan e<br /></span>[13:00] elisunar: makan ke?<br />[13:00] elisunar: bwkk roti mkn kat meja..<br />[13:00] elisunar: mat saleh mkn cmtu gak..<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:00] abanghaq10: kak nani suruh bawa kemera nak try fress con </span><br />[13:01] elisunar: try sok ke?<br />[13:01] elisunar: xnak ah..<br />[13:01] elisunar: pc lotus ni..<br />[13:01] elisunar: kalo kat umah tu ok la<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:01] abanghaq10: kita guna skype but when</span><br />[13:02] elisunar: time eli slalu tepon mak ah<br />[13:02] elisunar: kt sini kul 5 pagi, kt sana kul 1 ptg<br />[13:02] elisunar: ok x?<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:02] abanghaq10: time cuti ke</span><br />[13:02] elisunar: hari2 pn eli call mak time tu<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:03] abanghaq10: nanti acun link gan skpye dulu<br />[13:03] abanghaq10: tak join member lagi<br /></span>[13:03] elisunar: dload skype dulu<br />[13:03] elisunar: best tu menda tu<br />[13:04] elisunar: suka org yg cipta...<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:04] abanghaq10: kat sana seronok tak<br /></span>[13:05] elisunar: ok la...<br />[13:05] elisunar: sejuk...<br />[13:05] elisunar: dah 2 hari sgt sejuk<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:05] abanghaq10: makan sedap tak</span><br />[13:05] elisunar: mkn eli masak la...<br />[13:05] elisunar: mesti la sedap...<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:05] abanghaq10: masak ke makan benda dlm bungkusan</span><br />[13:05] elisunar: dedua..<br />[13:06] elisunar: kalo rajin, masak...<br />[13:06] elisunar: tgk dh gamba?<br />[<span style="color:#3366ff;">13:06] abanghaq10: ada baju MU yg murah<br />[13:06] abanghaq10: blm </span><br />[13:07] elisunar: jersey, even jersey norwich pn haraga = 40pound<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:07] abanghaq10: hantar kat email abanghaq@hotmail.com</span><br />[13:07] elisunar: pastu, made in china..<br />[13:07] elisunar: baik bli kat kl<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:07] abanghaq10: tak payah la beli kat prtaling street dah le</span><br />[13:07] elisunar: betul2..<br />[13:08] elisunar: kalo eli bli sthing, eli nk bli menda yg payah nk dpt kat kl<br />[13:08] elisunar: ok x?<br />[13:08] elisunar: baru la spesel sket..<br />[13:09] elisunar: bila akim nak sunat?<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:09] abanghaq10: ancun nak makan dulu lapar<br />[13:09] abanghaq10: nak chat gan adik tak<br /></span>[13:09] elisunar: ceehhhh<br />[13:10] elisunar: abes kuar menda papetah<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:10] abanghaq10: tak pasti tapi awal cuti akhir thn<br />[13:10] abanghaq10: dlm bulan 11 kot</span><br />[13:10] elisunar: bulan 11 dah la ni...<br />[13:10] elisunar: hmm..<br />[13:10] elisunar: dah2 g makan...<br />[13:11] elisunar: eli blk kang nk makan puas2...#<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:11] abanghaq10: ada makan sedap kat carefour chef dari thai<br /></span>[13:11] elisunar: baru eh<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:12] abanghaq10: dia org buat promosi tak tahu sampai bila</span><br />[13:12] elisunar: alaaaaaaaaaaaa<br />[13:12] elisunar: huuuuuuu<br />[13:12] elisunar: waaaaaa<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:13] abanghaq10: kak jah kata sedap ancun tak try lagi nanti ancun tlg mkn kan utk eli he he he</span><br />[13:13] elisunar: cess la<br />[13:13] elisunar: g ah makan..<br />[13:13] elisunar: makan kan skalik..<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:14] abanghaq10: adik kata dia nk toy</span><br />[13:14] elisunar: hmmm...toy..roger<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:14] abanghaq10: adik kata dia cyg bik eli</span><br />[13:15] elisunar: cyg adik jgk...<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:15] abanghaq10: acun tanya adik bik eli kat mana dia kata eli kat taiping....he he he</span><br />[13:16] elisunar: taiping je?<br />[13:16] elisunar: jap..mana dia tauword taiping tu?<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:18] abanghaq10: abang nak gi rombongan sek ke taiping tapi x dibenarkan so abang selalu nak try pujuk ayah dan ibu kasi dia gi tapi still tak di benar kan so hari2 dia cakap pasal taiping so adik ikut lah,,,,</span><br />[13:18] elisunar: see...<br />[13:18] elisunar: ooo...rombongan yg ada zoo taiping tu..eli pn tau apa..<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:19] abanghaq10: kalau abanghaq gi sapa nak jaga hakim bila dia sunat</span><br />[13:19] elisunar: ancun la..<br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">[13:19] abanghaq10: woi wok la</span><br />[13:20] elisunar: work je pun...adik ah jaga...bg dia balas dendam kat hakim..heeee</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">[13:21] abanghaq10: adik la ni selalu merayau sejak ada anfal kat umah nenek</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">[13:21] abanghaq10: so bazil &amp; nabil pun join sekaki...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;">[13:22] elisunar: bkn ke anfal xde pn dia merayau gak...</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;">[13:22] elisunar: pepagi dgr dah suara dia</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">[13:22] abanghaq10: kalau ada nafal dia merayau jauh dari biasa</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">[13:23] abanghaq10: selalu kat umah mak, nabil &amp; bazil ni ada anfal so jarak dia merayau ada tambah 15 kaki</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;">[13:24] elisunar: hehehe..</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">[13:26] abanghaq10: ye tau tak lim go tong dah mati</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;">[13:26] elisunar: dia mati b4 ye dtg sini</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">[13:26] abanghaq10: ye ke</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;">[13:27] elisunar: yupp2</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">[13:28] abanghaq10: ancun laparrrrrr gile ok lah nanti bila2 kita chat lagi..... bye... kaknani kirim salam</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;">[13:28] elisunar: ook</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;">[13:28] elisunar: kem salam balik</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">[13:28] abanghaq10: dia perli ancun type lambat</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;">[13:28] elisunar: mmg pun kot</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;">[13:28] elisunar: nite2</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-8888552518475108236?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-91158720888264661872007-11-05T03:43:00.000+08:002007-11-05T04:17:18.394+08:00malaysia: 5th nov 3.44am<br />norwich: 4th nov 7.44pm (it's still my birthday)<br /><br />juz finish my report for the 1st week...n roza is already asleep. and i? i'm chasing cars in my head.<br /><br />dia selalu ada..walaupun dia jauh, walaupun dia sedih, walaupun dia tau dia xdpt apa2, walaupun dia xperlu ada, walaupun dia asik kecewa...tp dia masih ada...<br /><br />he knows me, understands me, even if i don admit, even if i act strong..sometimes, he knows me better than i know myself..even when he can't be near, even all he can do is say "insyaAllah everything will be ok"...but still...he's there...<br /><br />with him, i can't lie, i can't act..becoz...he knows...he reminds me of mak...he cares...he even gave me early bday present, becoz i won't be at where i always be during my bday...n thats makes my heart smile...becoz he remembers..<br /><br />and i?<br />i need to figure out...what i want...n what i need...this is the time..i'm out my comfort zone...being alone in this strange place, no family, no friends...n i will know, who really cares about me..i know mak will...becoz mak rindu eli..but thats mak..n of course i need mak..i already knew that 24 years ago...<br /><br />tp yg pasti...dia selalu ada...n i'm grateful for it...psl dia kata "everything will be ok"..<br /><br /><object width="300" height="80"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/m/xHaTTalxjH/aus=false/"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://media.imeem.com/m/xHaTTalxjH/aus=false/" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="300" height="80" wmode="transparent"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-9115872088826466187?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-35993515406257943212007-11-03T14:58:00.000+08:002007-11-03T15:20:27.714+08:00this morning, borak with mak for around 45 mins n it cost me only rm4.51....<br />nice...even cheaper dr call kat malaysia..n mak did said...mak rindu eli jugak...hmmm...suka dgr tu...tp xpe since call guna skype sgt murah, eli call mak slalu...psl rindu mak jugak...<br /><br />i'll be here for 1.8 month or 1 month or less than that? the question need to be answered by tajul..x paham sungguh cara management pakcik tu...i'll wait for his decision...but...kata la, kalo kena balik awal, i'll gladly, happily, n sgt2 menantikan menda itu. reasons:<br /><br />1) homesick...hahahaha<br />2) dpt join korban <br />3) dpt tgk dina 1 tahun<br />4) dpt tgk hakim sunat<br />5) otak x cramp sgt<br />6) dpt balik umah..suka..sgt suka..<br />7) bond ngan proton staun je...kalo less than a month kat sini la, which is not a problem for me..lagi kejap, lagi bagus. sangap gilos kat sini.nmpak sgt...<br />8) WEEEEEEEEEEEE....pulang!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />tp..doa byk2...shorten the training period...jom doa sama2...jom2...<br />mak pun suka kalo blk cepat...see...sama je anak beranak...<br /><br />bak kata abah...rumah ni senyap kalo eli xde...mak pn ckp td..umah senyap...<br /><br />cess...umur sok 24 taun..tp...manja mcm apa je...tp bak kata org putih...<br /><br />-home is where the heart is-<br /><br />p/s: sok mak nak masak bubur merah..nk jugak...dulu time kt hostel pn cani..hmmmmmm...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-3599351540625794321?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-76442892845696044912007-11-01T20:07:00.000+08:002007-11-01T20:30:59.501+08:00so here i am at a place called norwich at east england in the month of november...my birthday is juz 3 days away...i will be 24th at this place, without my family, my friends, alone with roza, in this strange place...<br /><br />the first few days normally is the hardest days ever. same with me..with this weather, the manual car, the time zone, and i never imagine that i could miss malaysia this much...<br /><br />i already miss everything..my mum, dad, anak2, friends, neo, tv, astro, food..did i mention everything? it means everything...<br /><br />and i drive a manual car here. my problem with manual car is, i always forgot a thing called clutch down there..<br /><br />i hate this, being alone and away..but i'll get through it somehow..i'll be strong..and i'm counting days...55 days is not that long rite...kan? hope so...<br /><br />~hmmmm~<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-7644289284569604491?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-76070273510266997322007-10-29T10:33:00.000+08:002007-10-29T10:51:08.400+08:00nervous breakdown to date: 5 times...<br />currently: trying to calm down. to prevent 6th nervous breakdown.<br />kpi: siap dah. weeee....<br />things will be missed: dina 11 months and dina's 1st birthday. dina.<br /> korban lembu..hmm...xdpt join potong lembu...<br /> hakim sunat...finally...<br /> makan2 on raya haji<br /> makan2 on birthday sendiri<br />will absolutely missed: mak abah...huuuu..<br /> my bed: the love story..<br /> neo si hensem..<br /> anak2..buli mereka...<br /> adik beradik...kawan gaduh..<br /> mari2 n semah..<br /> PROTON..series ni..<br /> udara panas..<br /> tempe, sambal belacan, food..food..<br /> tv, astro, baring2 depan tv, malas2.tido.<br /><br />between us ok,<br />i dont like traveling alone, to be at a new place, to feel lonely..wonder nak ngadu kat sape if suddenly terasa mcm hampas...<br />between us again ok?<br />saya ialah anak manja..<br /><br />balik nnt, mesti dina x kenal dah...kena ngorat balik nih...<br /><br />last words: eli...u can do it..be strong gal..be strong...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-7607027351026699732?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-44556408482697582462007-10-23T15:06:00.000+08:002007-10-23T18:13:01.202+08:00raining season and i'm sleepy as usual...<br /><br />the most frequent question people ask me today...<br />cane eli? ok?<br /><br />ok ke? apart from kereta berapi n berasap, i told ali "pasal ni la aku suka keje proton. mengarut..banyak betul aku blaja. baru staun keje."<br /><br />n skarang ni, depa dok diskas psl hose yg leak, betul2 seblah meja...malas nak amik port.<br /><br />chaotic sungguh life ini...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-4455640848269758246?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-90137294668007160592007-10-18T17:30:00.000+08:002007-10-19T20:39:17.951+08:00ingredients:<br /><br />biskut soda (biskut paling keras dlm rekod biskut)- rendam dlm milo pn x kembang2<br />sunflower hawflakes (better known as asam seposen)<br />5-6 biji telur<br />sebuku butter<br />gula halus<br />susu pekat manis<br />pewarna makanan yg dibenarkan<br /><br />how to do? no flour? <br /><br />1st: hancurkan biskut n ayak = dapat tepung<br />2nd: pukul butter n gula smpai kembang (gebu)<br />3rd: masukkan telur sebiji-sebiji smbil pukul<br />4th: masukkan susu secukup rasa<br />5th: masukkan tepung (biskut) tadi<br />6th: bahagi 2 adunan. 1 colour natural, 1 lagi colour pewarna makanan.<br />7th: buat 1st lapisan n kukus 1/2 cooked<br />8th: susun hawflakes n kendian kukus smpai 1st layer masak.<br />9th: ulang step 7 n 8<br />10th: ulang step 9<br />.<br />.<br />.<br />approximately 3 hours later,<br />siap dah kek yang berlapis2...masukkan dalam oven n bakar kejap...<br /><br />walllahh....kek lapis asam yg eli sukai...<br /><br />eventho this cake is the most cerewet cake ever (kena buat tepung sendiri-cerewet la tu) n need A LOT of patience (bila nk lapis wit asam keping2 dgn melekat2nye-huuu), i still baked it. why? <br />becoz..i love this cake a lot n mum don't bother to do it for me anymore.<br /><br />this year is the third year i baked the cake, and juz like years before i forgot the ingredients and the steps...<br />so..hopefully, after a chapter specially dedicated to the kek lapis asam, i won't forget anymore...<br /><br />p/s: selamat mencuba...<br />pp/s: since my brothers pun sgt suka kek ni, n diorg je yg tau mana nak dpt biskut soda...TQ ayoy..for the biskut tiap2 taun...<br /><br />SELAMAT HARI RAYA...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-9013729466800716059?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-69076127777345511532007-09-27T13:01:00.000+08:002007-09-27T14:08:50.553+08:00deep inside i know what i want, i admit it, but to have it...i leave it to Allah. only He knows what's the best for me...<br /><br />there's just no word to describe what i feel now. <br /><br />sms maria buat saya sayu...<br />kenapa..<br />kita still tanya kenapa, eventho xde sape nak jawab..or even worse, xde answer pun..<br /><br />salah ke kalau kita nak hope for something? even sgt ajaib la kalau apa yg kita hope tu kita dapat..<br />salah ke kalau kita nak start something new? walaupun kita xtau pun wujud ke tak apa yang kita nak start tu...<br />n salah ke kalau kita nak rasa diri kita complete? eventho kita still xtau apa yg boleh completekan kita...<br /><br />kenapa kita susah nak start something new? nape kita xnak tinggalkan comfort zone kita? nape kita takut nak bagitau orang apa kita rasa? nape kita lagi rela senyap dari bercakap? nape kita penakut?<br /><br />i hate to be alone, that's the reason why i live with my family n have those wonderful friend..at least i can share..<br /><br />n to you my dear blog, at least, i can write my miserability...<br /><br /><object width="400" height="325"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/v/_HCcfUA4wS/aus=false/pv=2"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://media.imeem.com/v/_HCcfUA4wS/aus=false/pv=2" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="400" height="325" allowFullScreen="true"></embed></object><br /><br /><embed 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dont want to sleep. miss my bed n tv very much..with all the binatang..badak, simga, panda...huhhh...nak tido kat umah...<br /><br />this is my 1st time writing from this pc. at workshop. reason: aircond lagi sejuk. kat atas panas, n for sure surau penuh. eli membawa diri..<br /><br />buka with frens the other day..mcm remaja berpeleseran di tepi jalan...kidding lah..food..ok. price sgt ok...salute hana: pandai dia cari tempat. and..i'm not good in UNO already. kaut lagu raya dari isma..next week ringtone nak letak lagu raya. bagi ada feel sket..huuuhuuuuu...<br /><br />mata x panjang dah. menaip ni mmg bagus utk ubat mata..<br /><br />this coming jumaat. mak's birthday...stil xde idea utk present. kalo ada idea pun, bila tah nak beli..nak bagi apa ye..bagi hati dan perasaan je la..ok gak tuh..dah la tgh ketandusan hati dan perasaan ni..tp..baru staun ngadap enjen..aduhhh....<br /><br />nak lari la...nak nyorok...dok bawah meja ke..kusi ke...dlm lemari ke..pancit dah ni..sakit pinggang gak..umur, x masuk 24 lagik..<br />nk katil..golek2..pk pasal katil je, trus rasa best..senyum sorg2..flip flop...ati bunga2...penuh harapan...hepi...<br /><br />eli mengong..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2412525910188840517?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-56379880891460739282007-09-22T15:55:00.000+08:002007-09-22T16:18:54.637+08:00i just notice this yesterday, ramadhan made me feels something inside..it can't be described..i recall my ramadhan years ago, at hostel, at uni...sahur with frens, buka with frens...the 'pancit'ness we felt when we over used our energy..my ramadhan two years ago.. mak, abah n ancun involved with accident..the most chaotic ramadhan ever...and the most not 'raya' ever..moments when i did my shopping for raya with anak2..its actually the raya preparation for the whole family. terasa macam dah ada family sendiri.<br /><br />and my ramadhan last year, 1st ramadhan as a proton employee. ok la..1st ramadhan i actually kerja..this year, just like years before..there's something inside of me..and it only appears in the month of ramadhan. the feelings of 'ntah la'. <br /><br />one thing that i like about ramadhan in my house is...dodol..the smell of asap n dodol n abang2 yang nak dpt fit body for raya (kacau dodol). i just can't imagine a ramadhan without dodol..dari kecik dah ada..since i can remember..even now, anak2 can complaint if there's no dodol..cucu sunar...<br /><br />but this ramadhan, there's nurin's case..it made me speechless...nape ada org kejam cmtu? even animals won't treat others like that..i won't call that orang animal, but much worse than animal...usually i dont know what to wish for, but in this ramadhan, i wish, i pray, i hope for this world to be a better place, for everybody to be a better person, for no more brutallity on children, n for people to actually think. Allah gives us brain and wisdom to think..i wish for people to think with both brain and heart..<br /><br />hopefully, everything is gonna be ok after this. guess, need to get ready..buka with da gals tonite..<br /><br />and for all i still have, i really thank Allah for this.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5637988089146073928?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-42373463318800894782007-09-04T13:08:00.000+08:002007-09-04T13:25:52.673+08:00one week without centrizine(ubat resdung eli) is just too much for me..i can feel the ulat2 resdung partying inside my nose..yesterday, eli out. ulat resdung conquer everything. luckily, i've got my centrizine yesterday evening(klinik baru dapat stock - Alhamdulillah)..<br /><br />i try to avoid seafood as good as i could. i avoid udang, sotong, everything...xcept udang mentah 2 ekor atas sushi..wat to do..nama pun sushi udang..but the thing is, how can i avoid seafood?<br />malay food..belacan wajib, udang kering wajib, ikan bilis wajib...dlm smbal tumis ada udang kering, char kuey teow ada air udang..see...if i need to avoid everything, nak makan apa? sedih betul ni....<br />so, the conclusion is, makan je apa yg patut n then makan centrizine...so, eli hepi...ulat2 pun hepi, klinik lagi la hepi...proton je sedih, psl kena bayar centrizine tu..<br /><br />tomolo, eli cuti...so blog, see u in one week..may i have a pleasant cuti..<br /><br />p/s: <br />pirate poppers: suddenly dah level 56. ada org kenit mainkan time eli tgh tido..thank u org kenit...<br /><br />p p/s:<br />cinta/kasih zulaika by mawi: lagu tu nyanyi2 dalam kepala saya ni...cane...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-4237346331880089478?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-4852037511292816732007-09-01T21:07:00.000+08:002007-09-01T21:53:20.872+08:00what is real life?<br />according to forrest gump, life is like a box of chocolate..we'll never know what we'll get.<br /><br />last nite i went to nuri's, for our merdeka bbq. one year has passed. some remain the same, and some may not..after all, we all still have our life..and be grateful for that.<br /><br />is it wrong to hope for something that is beyond our reach? i'm not hoping for a falling star or the moon...it's just to high. and i'm short. i admit that. even with heels..i'm still not that tall.<br /><br />i'm hoping for one thing..one simple thing. waiting for it. with all the patience i have. it's not impossible, it's simple..not that simple actually, but not really complicated..but it need patience, a lot of patience and faith... <br /><br />i feel down sometimes. feels like i'm waiting for something that will never happen. feels like i'm actually hoping that the moon will falls on me. but the truth is, i'm only hoping for...for a good life, for comfort, and for care...<br /><br />and also, i'm hoping for one simple shoe..for now, i'll cherish my selipar jepun.<br /><br />in my pink pyjama, a real life for me is how we live our life. the decisions we made, the mistakes we learn, the smile we have, our hope and faith, and how we want to be remembered.<br />and it is not wrong to hope for something that is beyond our reach..perhaps, there's miracle..and if we don't get it..we are just human, we can't control everything..<br /><br />in my pink pyjama, i will keep my patience, watch one tree hill tonite, and hoping for that one thing to happen...even in dreams..<br /><br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param 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course was electrical power, i wasn't planning to take it, the only reason i took it was, it sounds good..electrical power..<br />than, i started to plan my life...after study i wanna work at power plant or to do something relevant with electrical power, but i ended up working with car company n calibrating engine..i planned to get married early, like 25, but...now i'm 24, being single and quite happy with my life (xcept when mum kept asking bout u know what)..<br /><br />so..what's the point of planning when there will always be the unplanned things in our life..<br />can someone tell me?<br />should we plan? or should we just live our life, follow the flow?<br /><br />when the unplan things happen, do we need to replan? <br />confusing huhh?<br /><br /><strong><em><br />when we make someone else happy, we will be happy too...</em></strong><br />betul kan?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2081133791249055850?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-41247311604082700772007-08-26T18:05:00.000+08:002007-08-26T18:50:49.747+08:00i used the word right instead of perfect since, for me, there's no such thing..a perfect shoe..<br />a pair of shoe, no matter how it fits our feet, eventually it'll hurt us sometimes..<br />what makes a shoe right for us?<br />some may say its the look, for some it will be the price or brand, and else will say its the comfort the shoe brings..<br /><br />once, i had this, the right pair of shoe, i own it for few years..it wasn't perfect, it hurts my feet sometimes, but for me, it was an ideal shoe..the comfort, the style..everything...but, as time goes by, the shoe doesn't feels right anymore..the bottom cracked, the top ripped, it just happened..it can be repaired, but it will not feels or looks the same. it doesn't mean that i'm not appreciating, i was..and i still remember it sometimes. my first right pair of shoe..<br /><br />i'm still finding my right pair of shoe..what matters the most for me is the comfort. it has to be simple and comforting. and fits me well. it don't need to be expensive or stylish..<br /><br />i've found a shoe, that might be right, but i couldn't try it..in fear of what it'll feels..will it be comfort like my previous shoe or will it be better or worse. all i do is just look at it..n do nothing..absolutely nothing..<br /> <br />i'm just hoping that if one day, if there's any opportunity for me to try on a pair of shoe, any shoe, i hope it'll fit me well..it doesn't need to be perfect..it just need to be right.<br /><br />and for those who already found their right pair of shoe, appreciate it, as to find another pair of the right shoe is not as easy as it may sound..<br />for those who still searching, good luck..we really need it.<br /><br />p/s:<br />this comes from someone who is younger than me;<br /><br />'semua relationship kita yg broken, actually buat kita sedar, org yg macam mana yg sesuai utk kita..so that kita boleh cari org yg fits kita..'<br /><br />same with shoes...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-4124731160408270077?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-62595505200364629262007-08-21T12:07:00.000+08:002007-08-26T18:02:05.879+08:00<blockquote></blockquote><p><span style="color:#00cccc;"><em>in the silence i can hear u say<br />the river runs and the river hides<br />out to the oceans and under the sky<br />i promise you the answer will come<br />hold on to patience and watch for the sign<br />everything in its time...</em></span> </p><p><br />me n my sister always said this "tgk..abah tgh berbicara dgn alam"<br />last weekend, i do a lot of "berbicara dgn alam", forget cartoon, beaches are much better than tv..thanks to abah, eli likes nature a lot...kalau la ada kawan sekepala time tu, rasanya smpai dah pulau kapas tu, tgk penyu..1 day, i want to chandat sotong..hmmm...imagining, my 1st sotong ever..nak amik gambar, pastu framekan..nice...<br /><br />during last weekend also, i agreed with isma on the 'rindu n network' thing..lucky there's maria. ngadu time..at that very moment, rindu strikes me a lot. and at that very moment, i felt alone..the feeling that i need someone just to sit besides me..the unplanned things has happened..<br /><br />i plan to stay in this comfort zone..tp..just like i said, its unintended. we'll see what will happen..but for now, kita kena pandai sorokkan perasaan. its hard, but it needs to be done..<br /><br />1300 hours, pirate poppers :)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6259550520036462926?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-35271946685969372112007-08-15T22:24:00.000+08:002007-08-15T22:51:20.649+08:00i should pack my bag for a trip...<br />but my head suddenly feels empty..dunno where to stop..i just pack..and pack and keep on going until...now...after an absolute over packed issue..<br />1 prob solve...thanks to ancun n mum...selamat neo ku dari kesunyian...<br /><br />it just, i don't feels right..with everything...in this case, not in the rite mood...pms kot..<br /><br />i'm confuse again...but this time, not with myself, i'm in a total control, but with people around me...not all but number of them..<br /><br />n now tetiba nak nangis...sah pms...<br />n suddenly feels like writing this is just a waste of time n i should continue packing...<br /><br /><br />"rindu tu, tak ikut network (phone)...tak kira la ada line ke, takde line ke, kalo dah rindu tu, rindu jugak"<br />-isma-<br /><br />that was isma's answer when i ask her sthing on rindu n network (maria's prob), guess..rindu has no border..n it makes me wonder...does the person we rindu really worth it?<br /><br />my bed worth it..thats for sure... :)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-3527194668596937211?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-61770661496054604702007-08-08T12:51:00.000+08:002007-08-09T09:48:28.829+08:00yesterday, i forgot to bring my handphone for like the 70th time. so, i did some muhasabah diri on myself..<br />this is my summary as a result of the muhasabah diri activity..the things that i'm xtremely into<br /><br />- black<br />i want batman as my boyfriend becoz of the black outfit + mysterious personality. black handphone, black shirt, black baju kurung, black heels, hitam itu menawan. diana once said, "eli...u need to colour up your life". so i bought a dark chocolate shirt..n thanks to my mum for adding more colours in my life.<br /><br />- a box called TV<br />if i can marry tv, all my problems are solved. my mum won't ask anything regarding "boyfriend" anymore. <br /><br />- my bed<br />its a true love story, eli n her bed. usually, the 1st nite i spend without my bed will be a sleepless nite. but only the 1st nite la, since...<br /><br />- sleep<br />i love sleeping more. sleeping from my sister's point of view is a sweet escape. totally 170% agree.<br /><br />- readings<br />fav: story books n comics. other: so-so. the real ulat buku is in town. as long as there's huruf2 bertaburan, i'll read it..no wonder i have this rabun jauh since standard 4.<br /><br />- sweets<br />the "keracunan gula" syndrome. symptoms: hyperactive, a bit mengong..all sweets included. priority, chocolate (blame it on abah), lolipop (chupachup choc vanilla..wahhh). why anak2 love my room? because, there's always sweets in there.<br /><br />- beras<br />once, my cita2 is to be a tauke kilang beras (i did admit it in a small gathering with my juniors - 100+ person)..n all my friends thought i worked with bernas. but, alhamdullillah, as i get older, i realize that my teeth are not as strong as before.<br /><br />- mandi<br />its either <em>mandi? weee</em> or <em>mandi? what's that?</em> confuse huhh? its ok..me also<br /><br />- water<br />hydrophobic. no more to say<br /><br />- tarik rambut<br />my mum always says,"botak nnt asik tarik rambut je" but...habit already, what to do<br /><br />- the magic word: SALE<br />need to say more? if cannot shopping, window shopping also can la...<br /><br />- lingerie<br />maria did ask before,"yang ko nak bli byk2, lain2 ni utk apa? bukannye org nmpak pun..." my answer was,"yg penting, kepuasan diri". n the sales gal said,"kita pkai hali2 punya, takpa loh" pandai sales gal tu...<br /><br />- the word "elibaik"<br />eli mmg baik apa...<br /><br />- spicy food<br />i can feel volcano in my stomach, sesema (sroot, sroot)..tp, kalo x pedas, x kick la...<br /><br />- forgetfull + misplace<br />once, this was my biggest prob, so i invent a system for myself. that's why, my things n my life are so teratur (kot). a system that works since my 3rd month in boarding school. the first 3 month, hampas. now, even my mum terharu when she looked at how i organize my stuff in my closet.<br /><br />- being mengarut..<br />is there's a cure for this?<br /><br />- seafood. <br />lalalalalalala...resdung? apa tu?<br /><br />- singing n dancing while driving<br />level: chronic. bulan puasa, fed hiway (PJ area), jammed thp max (buka dalam keta): eli: listening, sing and dance along paris hilton's nothing in this world.. until: <em>"alamak, pakcik keta seblah ni tengok..aduu...awat dia sengih2..malu2..."</em><br />unfortunately, cannot run. jammed...buat muka steering..sy x salah...<br /><br />- coffee<br />minum smpai hanged...nice... -the ultimate @ coffee bean-<br /><br />- lets fight whiteheads n blackheads on our face<br />who wants me to picit their muka, juz give me a call...maria? nak? hehehehe...pipi x kaco, just dahi, kat area2 telinga tu...ok?<br /><br />so...this is me...n the things that i'm extremely into...<br />lets us all be a better person..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6177066149605460470?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-59369780631852043512007-08-06T13:40:00.000+08:002007-08-06T17:34:58.439+08:00happiness comes in so many kinds:<br /><br />- in company of good friends, in making someone else's dream comes true, or in hoping that happiness is just a minute away..<br /><br />for me...as long as there's happiness in this life, its ok...<br /><br />lately, i'm so into lagu jiwang...nomally, i'm not so into acha n irwansyah, but now ada cinta is one of my fav song...listening to it now, n also kekasih gelapku...scary eli...<br /><br />why am i behaving like this? i ask my sifu - maria (since i'm slow with this kind of thing and my friends used to interpret everything to me)<br /><br />maria said, if i like red suddenly (eli = anti red) meaning that i'm in love...<br />if i like pink, ready to be in love...white, lonely...black, confuse...blue, in peace...<br /><br />black, i'm obsess with black so cannot take into account. otherwise, i will be in confusion all the time (tp, mcm betul je)...red, once i nearly bought a red bag, but lucky my mum stopped me (cantik beg tu)...pink, crazy with bright pink now, pink sling bag from bali, pink pashmina, pink tudung, pink ahum2, eli pinkie....white, love white, kinda sama taraf with black...blue, laut? nice....<br /><br />so what's the summary? <br />i like colours... (damn maria baca sure dia hangin-summary yg sungguh lurus)<br /><br />but the thing is, when i said <em>"maria, aku suka lagu jiwang skang, aku dah berubah..."</em><br />she called, juz to laugh...but not too suprised, i was sick at love songs before...<br /><br />happiness for me? <br />perhaps its when i feel my life and myself is complete...<br /><br /><br />p/s: action plan section in my kpi still empty...go eli go...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5936978063185204351?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-66429591998931659012007-07-30T10:12:00.000+08:002007-07-30T11:29:30.178+08:00monday morning, raining, and i did dreamt of war last nite. feels tired today. i spend my whole nite running away from bombs and gunshots..maybe its because i watch <em>28 weeks later</em> before i went to sleep.<br /><br />selsema...flu...idong gatal...i spend around 16 hours sleeping in total yesterday...stil not enough though...<br /><br />meet da gals last saturday nite, maria still maria...diana still diana...its just ema finally found her happiness, good for her, she did suffer too much for the past 2 years. hepi for her, bit jealous actually...eli, still eli..<br /><br />n suddenly manggis makes me smile....tp...i'm fasting today...so...consider xde redjeki la...hmm<br /><br />nk tulis apa td...lupa dh ni...ni la padah tulis blog, analyze data n dgr lagu at da same time...<br /><br />(after some times, kiut dah data)<br />something triggered on me last weekend as mr. D told me to think about my future sometimes...don't be to comfort with my life now..with frens, family, work...n not realizing how fast time goes by..i'm happy now, thats true. perhaps its because i'm in my comfort zone. x fikir byk pasal org lain...just diri sendiri...he's got point there...smpai bila nak duduk dlm comfort zone?<br /><br />why we just can't get it all?<br />ema, she's happy now, but after losing her parents..<br />diana, already found the well paid job, but suffers inside..<br />maria, for all the ups and downs, n losing the rite one..<br />eli, once i thought i've got it all..but i was wrong..i dont have it all at the same time.<br />i found something and losing something else...<br /><br />for now, i'm glad with what i have, let go what i've lost and hoping for what i dont have...<br /><br />the weather makes me jiwang today..we always blame it on the weather...<br /><br /><br /><object width="300" height="80"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/m/9SJJbYPt5-/aus=false/"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://media.imeem.com/m/9SJJbYPt5-/aus=false/" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="300" height="80" wmode="transparent"></embed></object><br /><br />p/s: kekasih gelapku? hmmm....mmg jiwang budak ni ari ni...<br />hari lepas hujan... :)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6642959199893165901?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-14442924385850338252007-07-26T21:32:00.001+08:002007-07-26T21:51:55.915+08:00<object width="300" height="80"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/m/4y-ildHqd7"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://media.imeem.com/m/4y-ildHqd7" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="300" height="80" wmode="transparent"></embed></object><br /><br />i love this song...no matter what version..frankie vallie, lauryn hill, muse, name it..juz can't take my eyes off you.<br /><br />macam hari lepas hujan..<br />suka..<br />cane rasa hari lepas hujan? hmm...fresh, sejuk, hijau, bersih, suka, senyum, hepi...<br /><br />eventho, my brain sensor worked slowly today, but i do feel like hari lepas hujan..<br />perhaps its because, my niece notice that i'm not <em>slow</em> like yesterday..n my sista did admit that she mengumpat me dgn kawan2 dia psl perangai anak2 bongsu yg buat family pening...as in, mak dah semangat nak buat kenduri but anak mcm buat xtau je...n i'm not the only one, adik2 kawan2 dia pun camtu gak...<br />anak bongsu comes in 1 package..so...wat to do..<br />n..my gigi bongsu, finally kuar sket..x sakit dah, tp...asyik gigit pipi je time makan..gigi bongsu, juz like anak bongsu kot..<br />n..today, after 2 months, saya makan beras semula...suddenly rindu..gigit2 benda keras..best betul...beras, still da best snack ever...<br /><br />bik ye dah x slow macam smalam...hahahaha.... <br />-tribute to adlina-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-1444292438585033825?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-55564744969110417082007-07-23T13:23:00.000+08:002007-07-23T14:08:28.992+08:00there are times when we feel something that we cant describe. as in there's no words for it..perhaps it was meant to be kept by ourselves.<br /><br />a smile that comes from nowhere, tears that suddenly appears, a sense of hollow that sometimes we felt..indescribable..<br /><br />i do believe that sometimes, anytime, anywhere in this world, everybody have felt the feeling of loneliness..even when we're in open space filled with people..when we actually have everything..but we just feel empty...feels like there's a big empty hole in our heart..it just came..where we will feel the urgency to fill our heart with something...anything...where we really need someone to be with us..even just to sit beside us...or to smile....<br /><br />and there are times when we're actually alone...but our heart feels warm..like we don need anything more..feels satisfied with what we already had...but...still...alone....<br /><br />there's always explanation for everything we felt...things that i thought indescribable is actually describable....when people cant describe what they felt, is actually because they didn't want to describe it...afraid to admit perhaps...or afraid to feel....or afraid to let go....<br /><br /><br />then, it was left...unwritten and unspoken....<br />just words....<br />the unwritten and unspoken...they are just words....<br />but i guess...its hard for someone to do so...<br /><br />myself....i rather say i'm feelingless than to admit...<br />selfish? coward?<br />perhaps...i would say...i'm..observing....<br /><br />hahaha....silly gal...still dont want to admit...apa la nak jadi ni....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5556474496911041708?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-10716524548386710462007-07-16T13:45:00.000+08:002007-07-18T18:02:25.825+08:00matahari besar - actually it was a sunset view i saw at kesas hiway, on the way back from endurance..failed to capture the view, but still remember it...<br />last week @ my room, while i'm confused with which baju kurung to wear for my cousin's wedding, suddenly the view flashed into my mind. matahari besar...<br /><br />there's so many questions in my mind now, mainly, it all involve wiring harness of a car...what connection, which for what, purge, weight etc. etc. guess my life is quite dull now....thank god my previous weekend was fun...<br /><br />i can sing mawi's song angan dan sedar quite ok now...thanks to my thoughtful sister..she burned a CD for our journey and only include 3 mawi's songs...when my mum and sista travelling in the same car, they need mawi...3 will do...n the song still lingers in my ears 'till now...a result of 30 times angan dan sedar...<br /><br />guess need to resume my work now...go electrical...go wiring harness...my eyes are wired up now...hmm.....<br /><br />wat to do....hanged..........<br /><br />ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZzzzz<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-1071652454838671046?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-83441495968001835312007-07-06T13:47:00.000+08:002007-07-06T14:31:39.946+08:00sitting alone in my office...writing blog, listening to radio, trying to book tickets for transformers...<br />the internet is hopelessly slow today..huhh....no sign of transformers tickets until now...<br /><br />still smiling today. what made me smile? its because i know myself better now...<br />my heart (qalbun maridh) - a sick heart. i began to understand that and i'm healing my heart..<br /><br />i'm very positive now. living in denial? hmmm...<br />perhaps..i'm just waiting..<br />waiting for something right to happen to me...<br /><br />waiting for someone...<br />am i ready? <br />a friend of mine did ask that question yesterday...if the person is right n suit me...why not?<br /><br />do i fancy someone now?<br />hahahaha....i'll leave that question for future...or unanswered...<br /><br />is that the the reason? for why i'm smiling...not sick of love songs? <br />nahh...i'm not denying but the real reason is...finally, i'm opening my heart...<br />i'm alone now...but i'm happy...i'm optimistic...optimus prime...transformers?<br /><br />sometimes...its better to let things happen naturally rather than pushing hard...its better to let go rather than holding on...its better to observe rather than to bond..and its better to smile rather than to laugh...<br /><br />thanks to people around me...for always being there...n for all the guidance...<br />now i know that...appreciating is better than hoping for more..<br /><br />error: no response from tgv = no transformers ticket booked...<br />surrender dah...tp nak transformers....aduhh....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-8344149596800183531?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-4493440636251914642007-07-05T13:26:00.000+08:002007-07-05T14:08:36.262+08:00i do smile a lot lately....despite of being busy, i smile a lot...i get my "smiling wrinkles" back...a good sign indeed<br /><br />i smile at micheal buble's everything, celine dion's to love you more, alanis morisette's hand in my pockets, backstreet boys' spanish eyes.....i even smile at mawi's new song....and accidently memorize it...<br /><br />still love my chemical romance's disenchanted though...<br /><br />still wonder...what made me smile...<br /><br />smiles at nice view...smiles at teases....smiles at jokes....smiles at everything...<br />my heart is smiling...my eyes are smiling....i am smiling....<br /><br />i'm not sick of love songs...anymore...<br /><br /><br /><em>"I'm broke but I'm happy <br />I'm poor but I'm kind <br />I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah <br />I'm high but I'm grounded <br />I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed <br />I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby" </em><br /><br /><em>"I'm free but I'm focused <br />I'm green but I'm wise <br />I'm hard but I'm friendly baby <br />I'm sad but I'm laughing <br />I'm brave but I'm chicken shit <br />I'm sick but I'm pretty baby"</em> <br /><br />alanis morisette-hand in my pocket<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><object width="530" height="370"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/p/0F1BDB9DD9B6053F"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/p/0F1BDB9DD9B6053F" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="430" height="350"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-449344063625191464?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-24309546176674845882007-06-25T13:46:00.000+08:002007-06-29T15:00:37.538+08:00i dedicate this chapter to my recent bali vacation; so that i won't forget...in malay, indonesian and english language.<br /><br />bali: a diary - from eli's personal view.<br /><br />thursday (21st june 07)<br /><br />ngurah rai airport - 4.50pm...nearly sunset, exotic airport, nice view....<br /><br />1st time ever, MS. SUHAILI SUNAR...damn...nama ku dipampang....gila bangga..fetched by travelling agent...Pak Kecut: our tour guide...n pak supir (nama aneh, x ingat)...big n quiet guy..always smiling....<br /><br />Jimbaran Bay - 5.50pm..sunset, dinner at beach, view; breathless.....<br /><br />from airport straight to jimbaran bay for a SEAFOOD dinner...wahahaha...my favourite...1 big plate filled with fish, udang (besar), cumi-cumi(sotong), kupang, all BBQed...duduk in between mak n abah....abah x makan udang n sotong = masuk pinggan eli, mak x makan kupang = masuk pinggan eli lagi...xtra kupang,sotong n udang = eli gumbira (x igt dah psal idong gatal; wise words from my sista, alang2 idong nak gatal, baik kita makan byk2...)....after dinner...check in...at bali garden hotel...nice hotel...like a garden indeed...near main road which is not very besar....n centro (new shopping complex; eli senyum lagi)...n also kuta beach (panjang betul pantai dia)...<br /><br />friday (22 june 07)<br /><br />focus: kintamani - volcano, still active, last 'meletup' year 1963, kesan lava still ada lagi.....hmmm....tp cantik tpt tu...<br /><br />early morning, take a walk at beach, meet untie mida (pronounce:maida) from bosnia...then, depart for kintamani...1st stop, barong n keris dance....kisah dewa siwa....ala2 opera sket...2 dancers perform bali dance....dr kepala, mata, kaki, sume must be coordinated...lentik betul badan mereka....pastu ada play...just like teater....then visit celuk: silver n gold art....here i notice that, org2 bali mmg penyabar...all the brooches, cincin, etc...are hand made, from scratch...bola2 besar mcm fullstop (noktah) glued together smpai jd loket....series...mata diorg x juling pn tgk bola kecik2 tu...kagum dah nih....then...tgk wood carving...pastu...painting...here i bought 4 paintings...abstract tu...mmg x paham maksud ah...tp cantik.....ngorat the painter utk dpt good price....hahahaha....kuasa wanita....then g kintamani....gunung berapi yg ada sket2 asap kuar dr kepala dia....lunch ngadap volcano...buffet style...nice food..after kintamani, pegi tpt org proses kopi...tpt mari mengenal tumbuh-tumbuhan..minum koko ngadap pokok...dekat bali, ada pokok vanilla...n all these while, i thought vanilla only exist kat brazil...huhhh....jalan balik, n stop at tegalalang....famous for the rice terace....tanam padi kat bukit, jd mcm tangga giant...all done manually.....speechless jap...rajin betul diorg...kita kat Malaysia, sume pakai mesin... our final stop...pasar sukawati...eli sgt sukahati........(sukawati=pasar yg jual brg2 bali dgn harga murah).....sandal dah nak tecabut...emergency kena cari sandal baru...hasilnya...1st sandal, sandal jempol (as described by mbak yg jual sandal)...jempol = ibu jari kaki in jawa....then, eli went crazy...shopping....bought a lot of necklace, 1 sling bag, pencil utk anak2..bargain utk abah...smpai la petang.....pastu cari umah sedara....tgk bali in person....the truth of bali....rumah...tersangat la rapat2...islam n non muslim sgt muhibbah n understanding....anjing rata2....horror....time ni...pak kecut was like my superman....tolong halau anjing2....banyak sgt....nangis....then dinner n jalan kat kuta...jalan carik kedai menarik....byk betul killer word..."SALE"....huhh....time to sleep....<br /><br />saturday (23 june 07)<br /><p>bedugul - danu aka danau....on top of a mountain...people here mostly muslim...</p><p>stroll along kuta beach while waiting for pak kecut n pak driver....n then depart for bedugul....short stop at pasar buah...suppose pasar buah = jual buah....but here...just like sukawati yesterday, a short stop became a "shopping" stop....mak punya turn mengganas....one and a half hour later....bedugul....lunch...nice food...pastu tgk tasik atas gunung....view...huhhh....sgt calming....here..i met my batman...a man + a bat....a big bat....n went for a boat ride wit mak n abah...initially, mak xnak join...tp kena psycho ngan eli n abah....= 3 anak beranak + pak kecut naik bot keliling danu....my aunty....xnak join...sejuk....best...air sgt sejuk....(sempat lagi main air)....</p><p>Tanah lot - aka tanah laut...has it own legend....terpisah dr tanah bali...if air pasang...xleh g sana...lucky...air surut....</p><p>from bedugul...depart for tanah lot...pak kecut said....<em>"kalau ada pacaran, mengikut lagendanya...jangan ke tanah lot bersama...nnt bisa putus"....</em>di dlm hatiku<em>.."ya...masa sih...jadi...kalau ngak ada pacaran....ya bisa oleh pacaran....hmmm....bagus itu..."....</em>hati kobar2 nak g tanah lot...fuhhh....tido dlm van...jauh betul tpt tu....tetiba...mak kejut...smpai dah...hehh....kedai je? tpt shopping lagi ke? aduuu...<em>"tanah lotnya kena jalan sikit"</em> giler ah....pak kecut ada telepati....ke muka ku ini melampau blur....series...xnmpak laut pun....jalan2...jalan....lalu kedai2....cuci mata....target menda2 yg nak di beli...hmmm....suddenly...cantik....tpt ni sgt cantik....ada batu bolong (lubang=bolong; bahasa jawa)...n tanah lot itself....sgt cantik....Allah dah cipta satu tempat yg sgt cantik...n semulajadi...kat tanah yg orgnya 90% hindu....sgt2....cantik....in love with bali....i spend my time here...mesmerizing....n then....shopping....final stop...eli yg mengganas....mak n auntie xmo shopping dah....abah je yg teman....abah memberi galakan....ayat abah<em>..."bila lagi nak datang sini"</em>....abah xtau yang anak dia ni....dalam hati dah cita2 nak honeymoon bali...kot x pun....datang ngan kawan2....nak tgk penyu n ikan lumba2 lak....next time....insyaAllah....jumpa dah pacaran....bali....hehehehehe....tpt cantik, shopping best, frenly people, nice food.....seafood...i could not ask for more...in love with bali.....</p><p>kuta square - juz cuci mata....duit abes dah....hehehehe...</p><p>after dinner yg sgt byk makanan...naik 3 kilo trus...on the spot....jalan2 at kuta square (kononnye excersice).....final shopping...shopping je keje budak nih....utk kwn2 la...anak2 la....n most important...diri sendiri....stop at hard rock...mak, abah n auntie...pg kedai lain....byk kedai sini....beli2....n then pegi cari wangi2an bali....sabun, essential oil, massage oil, n colok wangi....all natural, made in bali....then...penat dah....cramp dah kaki...sok spa...huhuu......sleep......</p><p>sunday (24 june 07)</p><p>nak balik dah....huuuu....after bfast...spa treatment...abah...massage je...eli n mak....full treatment....nice.....sah...saya sudah jatuh chenta sama bali....time spa...tetido...masa pakai masker muka....pastu mandi bunga...wangi betul air dia....rasa 2 jam stengah tu macam kejap je....</p><p>11.30 depart for airport...1.50...terbang....aduu....soknye keje....tp xpe....i'll be back....</p><p></p><p>prolog:</p><p>bali: a nice place indeed...nape la depa sanggup bomb...people there...sgt frenly...sgt berseni...sgt berbakat...i couldn't forget the pintu...cantik betul ukiran dia...if only bole masuk kapal terbang...abes segala pintu, pasu, batu2...sume borong...</p><p>bali: buat org yg buta seni beli lukisan....hahahaha.......i love my abstract paintings.....n my bali shoe...sandal jempol ku....all the wangi2an....necklace..shawl gamba bulan bintang.....handbags....i just love bali....<br /></p><br /><br /><br /><br /><embed name="flashticker" align="middle" src="http://widget-8c.slide.com/widgets/slideticker.swf" width="400" height="400" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" quality="high" scale="noscale" salign="l" wmode="transparent" flashvars="cy=y3&il=1&amp;channel=216172782123776908&site=widget-8c.slide.com"></embed> <div style="WIDTH: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: left"><a href="http://www.slide.com/pivot?ad=1&tt=24&amp;sk=0&cy=y3&amp;th=8&id=216172782121661727&amp;map=1" target="_blank"><img src="http://widget-1f.slide.com/p1/216172782121661727/y3_t024_v000_a001_f00/images/xslide1.gif" border="0" /></a> <a href="http://www.slide.com/pivot?ad=1&tt=24&amp;sk=0&cy=y3&amp;th=8&id=216172782121661727&amp;map=2" target="_blank"><img 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src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-7159431897827652424?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-25758081383692336892007-06-11T13:33:00.000+08:002007-07-05T13:41:24.319+08:00<em><span style="color:#66ffff;">disenchanted:</span></em><br /><a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/cynical">cynical</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/disappointed">disappointed</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/disenthralled">disenthralled</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/disentranced">disentranced</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/disillusioned">disillusioned</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/embittered">embittered</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/indifferent">indifferent</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/jaundiced">jaundiced</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/knowing">knowing</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/mondaine">mondaine</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/sick%20of">sick of</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/sophisticated">sophisticated</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/soured">soured</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/undeceived">undeceived</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/worldly">worldly</a>, <a class="noline" href="http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/worldly-wise">worldly-wise</a><br /><br />i started book 2 with the same feelings i felt when i 1st started book 1. though the reasons now is different, but its feel the same....disenchanted or should i say uninterested....<br /><br />things that i want to do now is, cry...for no reason...sounds silly. i'm acting like a fool myself.<br /><br />a friend of mine said that i'm not like before...guess that because i dont do a lot of thinking before...i just live my life the way that i want to....i like it better that way...sweet old eli..eli with wrinkles as a result of too many laugh n smiles.....<br /><br />this adulthood is just tiring...during my childhood, i always wonder why adults always think so much, why they cant make things simple....but now...i've become 1 competely complex adult myself.....fool me...for not knowing what i want now....for losing what i once had....for thinking so much....for not being able to be like before....for not knowing how to let go of everything...for hurting myself....for not crying....for pretending to be strong....for not be able to smile with my heart....for..........not sharing.........not knowing how to share.......not knowing how to start back..........for having these multi emotional time....for not being strong enough.........<br /><br />i'm killing my heart......<br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/aatDixdlV9M"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/aatDixdlV9M" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2575808138369233689?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-42816782433360376492007-05-29T13:52:00.000+08:002007-05-29T14:12:51.643+08:004 months since i first started this blog....<br />i've been thru a lot within this period...i learn a lot...knowing that life is not as simple as i thought...<br />lucky i still have my family, my friends, n those who care about me...<br />something that we should treasure most: a relationship...i dont have lover now....i used to love before and it seems that loving someone is harder now...but its ok....<br /><br />there's still an empty space in my heart...one tiny spot that make me feels like i lost something....<br />but its ok...i kept saying...its ok....since i still have people around me that cares about me...<br /><br />i appreciate what i have now...<br />if one day...there is love for me...i'll accept...<br />but for now...i'm happy with wat i have...a loving family...cheerful friends... myself...not to forget...those who care about me....<br /><br />thank you...<br /><br />p/s: <br />i'm in between...<br />lost and found....<br />rain and sunshine...<br />cry and smile....<br />i'm....blessed....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-4281678243336037649?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-81891754093461139362007-05-18T14:01:00.000+08:002007-07-05T13:05:11.611+08:00<embed name="flashticker" align="middle" src="http://widget-1f.slide.com/widgets/slideticker.swf" width="400" height="400" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" quality="high" scale="noscale" salign="l" wmode="transparent" flashvars="cy=y3&il=1&amp;channel=216172782121661727&site=widget-1f.slide.com"></embed> <div style="WIDTH: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: left"><a href="http://www.slide.com/pivot?ad=1&tt=24&amp;sk=0&cy=y3&amp;th=8&id=216172782121661727&amp;map=1" target="_blank"><img src="http://widget-1f.slide.com/p1/216172782121661727/y3_t024_v000_a001_f00/images/xslide1.gif" border="0" /></a> <a 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smile (n it comes direct from my heart) today: 16th may 07<br /><br />early in da morning, an uncle of mine, veteran, walking in da rain with his kitten.... :)<br /><br />in da office, a simple ecard from someone that always stand beside me....two cat saying "you're nice"....i did laugh....<br /><br />evening....maria's email....her emails always made me smile....knowing that i still have a friend...<br /><br />i smile today.....n it makes me realize, i'm lucky, to still have a smile.....the smile is mine....<br /><br /><br /><em><span style="color:#33ccff;">"Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend."</span></em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-4774474158769227359?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-7466663036010469032007-05-02T12:49:00.000+08:002007-05-02T12:57:04.654+08:00i have to admit....<br /><br />i really miss the sun...<br />despite all the joy in the rain, i want to feel the warmth of the sun.....the feelings that i almost forget....feeling warm....hot perhaps....sweaty....<br /><br />i'm letting go of everything for a simple wish....i wish...for the sun to shine on me....anytime...soon....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-746666303601046903?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-62389902483508042822007-04-17T12:27:00.000+08:002007-04-22T20:40:30.472+08:00someone told me....<br /><br />eli...<br />la tahzan...dont be sad....<br />dont let the future that u'll never know control u...<br /><br />i'm not lost anymore...i'm hanging on....i'm being strong....i live my life...<br /><br />i'm....dancing in the rain....<br /><br /><br /><br /><div width="180" height="210" align="center"><embed src="http://www.metrolyrics.com/scroller/scroller.swf?lyricid=2221277&border=2&bordert=80&bgfont=0xB34A20&bg=http://www.metrolyrics.com/scroller/bgpic/antiquenotes.gif&filter=0x2F0056&filtert=11&txt=0x000000&fontname=verdana&fontsize=11&speed=1" quality="high" bgcolor="#006666" width="180" height="210" name="scroll" align="middle" allowScriptAccess="sameDomain" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" /><br><a href="http://www.metrolyrics.com" title="lyrics">lyrics</a> - <a href="http://www.metrolyrics.com/daughtry-lyrics.html" title="Daughtry Lyrics">Daughtry Lyrics</a></embed></div><br /><br /><br /><object width="300" height="80"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/m/flpucY3vvw/aus=false/"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://media.imeem.com/m/flpucY3vvw/aus=false/" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="300" height="80" wmode="transparent"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-6238990248350804282?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-56394255524950182562007-04-16T12:23:00.000+08:002007-04-16T13:46:23.169+08:00got this from somewhere in www.... very nice indeed...comforting...n its exactly what life is...<br /><br />enjoy...<br /><br /><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"><span style="color:#ffffff;">Sometimes</span> </span></div><div align="center"><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">Sometimes people come into your life </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">and you know right away that they were meant to be there,</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson,</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">You never know who these people may be</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">(possibly your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">lover, </span><span style="color:#ffff00;">or even a complete stranger), </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment<br />they will affect your life insome profound way.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">painful, </span><span style="color:#ffff00;">and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">your potential,strength, willpower, or heart.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Everything happens for a reason. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Without these small tests, whatever they may be,</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">The people you meet who affect your life, </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">and the success and downfalls you experience,</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">help to create who you are and who you become. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Even the bad experiences can be learned from. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">forgive them, </span><span style="color:#ffff00;">for they have helped you learn about trust </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">and the importance of being cautious to when you open your heart. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally,</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">not only because they love you, but because in a way,</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">they are teaching you to love and how to open your </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">heart and eyes to things.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"> </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Make every day count.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Appreciate every moment and take from those moments </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">everything that you </span><span style="color:#ffff00;">possibly can for you may never be able </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">to experience it again. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Talk to people that you have never talked to before, </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">and actually listen. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Hold your head up because you have every right to. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">for if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">to believe in you. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">You can make of your life anything you wish.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Create your own life and then go out and </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">live it with absolutely no regrets. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">Most importantly, if you love someone tell them, </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">for you never know what tomorrow may have in store. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">And learn a lesson in life each day you live.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span> </div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span> </div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><em>Author...Unknown</em></div><div align="center"><em></em> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5639425552495018256?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-37820907314586451532007-04-03T17:47:00.000+08:002007-04-16T17:15:24.237+08:00raining...<br />5.49pm<br /><br />it's been raining lately...few drops, heavy rain...as long as there's drops of water falls from the sky..it's rain....<br />me now....waiting for the rain to stop...<br /><br />why can't i just walk in the rain???<br />i used to have so much fun in my younger years...shampooing in rain, playing in rain....why do i bother about it so much now....maybe its true....as we grow older, our sense of fun become less and lesser... :)<br /><br />gotta get that back...jump into the rain now?<br />maybe it can cure my heart....maybe it can bring back my sensibility....<br />or get sick...<br />or worst come to worst, get struck by lightning.....<br /><br />its so dark out there...<br />no sign for the rain to stop any sooner....<br />i guess...i'll just walk thru the rain....<br /><br />there's a quote from an unknown author....<br /><br /><em><span style="color:#33ffff;">"Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain."</span> </em><br /><br /><p>kinda agree wit him...</p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-3782090731458645153?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-28222238253752807242007-03-26T10:13:00.000+08:002007-03-26T10:54:59.292+08:00where to start....(mood:listening to James Blunt-You're beautiful..over n over again)<br /><br />with all my confusion, my lost, my fear, my heart broken, my wishes....i would say, my life is brilliant....<br />i was scared of risk, scared of hope, scared of opening my heart....still scared of letting people see what i feel inside....i'm learning...i'm being strong...i'm being me... (james blunt kept saying "you're beautiful" to me:my heart flipped)<br /><br />i am...not physically...but inside..i know i'm beautiful....i'm not perfect...i'm learning to be better....i do hurt people sometimes...not intentionally...still...i do hurt people....people who loves me....<br /><br />dare to risk....<br />dare to hope....<br />dare to be hurt....<br />i do let my heart open lately...i'm not lost anymore...but...seems like i'm going to be hurt...again...but this time...i'll prepare myself...i won't be like before...i'm stronger now...i've learn the hard way....i don't want to be lost again...<br /><br />and i will say...hurt is like my middle name...i'm so used to it...until...i don't care about it anymore...it teaches me....to live in my brilliant life....<br /><br />i'm moving on...i'm not confused....i'm not lost....i'm the new me....life is hurt...love is hurt...risk is hurt...hope is hurt....but...not being myself, being lost, living in confusion and fear...hurts me more....<br /><br />my life...with what i've got now...with the risk of getting hurt again...is brilliant....<br /><br /><br />p/s: feel so much better now....not scared of getting hurt anymore...hurt is hurt...it'll makes me sad...it'll makes me cry....but its part of my life...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2822223825375280724?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-5625779270143694162007-03-19T12:45:00.000+08:002007-03-19T12:56:35.531+08:00lately, in my life....i dont dare to risk, to hope, to reveal my heart....afraid of getting hurt again...until, lastnite..someone reminds me, the importance of having risk and hope in our life...the importance and the true meaning of loving someone...<br /><br />that someone said that without hope in our live is like we pray for something that we are not hoping of..<br />i guess...i need learn to risk and to hope and to trust and to open my heart...again...<br />loving someone...is to hope...<br /><br /><blockquote><br />To laugh is to risk appearing a fool,<br />To weep is to risk appearing sentimental<br />To reach out to another is to risk involvement,<br />To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self<br />To place your ideas and dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss<br />To love is to risk not being loved in return,<br />To hope is to risk despair,<br />To try is to risk to failure.<br />But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.<br />The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing is nothing.<br />He may avoid suffering and sorrow,<br />But he cannot learn, feel, change, grow or live.<br />Chained by his servitude he is a slave who has forfeited all freedom.<br />Only a person who risks is free.<br />The pessimist complains about the wind;<br />The optimist expects it to change;<br />And the realist adjusts the sails. <br /></blockquote><br />William Arthur Ward, "To Risk"<br /><br />and life..is all 'bout risk<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-562577927014369416?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-88824233058412438472007-03-18T21:24:00.000+08:002007-03-18T21:37:32.470+08:00simple things we asked for in life...<br /><br />*happiness<br />*someone to be with<br />*enough money<br />*peace<br />*free<br />*friends<br />*to be accept<br />*food<br />*shoe<br />*sale<br />*and many more simple things......<br /><br />add it all together...<br />simply...we asked for..happiness....<br /><br />so....what should we do to obtain happiness?<br /><br />its simple....<br />just be simple....<br /><br />am i happy? <br />currently...i have all my <em>simple</em> wishes with me.....<br /><br /><br /><object width="300" height="80"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/m/zol-XRNtCp/aus=false/"></param><param name="wmmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://media.imeem.com/m/zol-XRNtCp/aus=false/" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="300" height="80" wmode="transparent"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-8882423305841243847?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-50795920485905849842007-03-09T12:27:00.000+08:002007-03-09T13:26:40.570+08:00i dedicate this chapter to those who done a lot of thinking in their life lately...<br />thinkin about self, about work, about wolrd, about pollution, about money,..., about choices that they cannot decide....<br /><br />living in confusion, lost, is basically not a proper way to live...torn between choices...afraid of being lonely...lost in self....there's a way out..for every problem...for every choices....but still we refuse to choose it....why is that happen...we choose to live in confusion...<br /><br />we think logically...do some pros n cons...we list things....the consequences.... apart of these...we search deep in our heart...what we feel....how we react...but what will happen if...there's conflict between our heart n our mind? <br /><br />we will still be confused....<br /><br />so...do we still need to think? to choose? if in the end...we are still confuse?<br /><br />hmmm.....what i'm thinking now?<br />it's lunch time... :) and it's friday....i guess...i'm a light thinker...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-5079592048590584984?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-37151192404710813712007-03-08T15:59:00.000+08:002007-03-08T16:12:18.692+08:00we've all been waiting for something....for wishes to be granted....for someone to save us....for all the times to come....waiting for anything...everything....and for some special cases...waiting for nothing....<br /><br />in my case now...at this very moment...i'm waiting for the clock to strike 4.30, so that i can run my test (part of my job scope) and hoping that i can finish it before 5.30, which is quite impossible.....but all i can do now is wait...<br /><br />while i'm waiting, wishing for the time to pass-by quickly, there's others.... wishing for the time to pass-by slowly...<br /><br />i guess...we're all being selfish sometimes....there will be a time, when all we think of....is ourselves....<br /><br />still waiting....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-3715119240471081371?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-35974050578424079282007-03-02T18:16:00.000+08:002007-03-02T18:39:54.172+08:00it took me a long time to start writing this chapter....digging inside to know what exactly i feel in this exact moment......nothing.....<br /><br />and i start to think...why aren't i feel anything now...anxious? nervous? emptyness?<br /><br />at this exact moment...at this exact time...all i do is typing, thinking my next word and breath....<br />and to be honest..i'm quite suprise...despite my feelingless emotion, i manage to write this much...suddenly a question popped into my mind...<br /><br />what if...u got everything that u want in your life?<br /><br />what will u feel at that very moment?<br /><br />but i'm sure...we will only be able to feel only if we're still breathing.....<br /><br /><br /><object width="300" height="80"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/m/s036R_823_/aus=false/"></param><param name="wmmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://media.imeem.com/m/s036R_823_/aus=false/" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="300" height="80" wmode="transparent"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-3597405057842407928?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-8609913792690335662007-02-28T21:13:00.000+08:002007-02-28T21:31:31.148+08:00<span style="color:#ff0000;">1st approach....</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: ko ada?<br />suhaili sunar: bantuan...<br /></span><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: ader<br /></span><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: ko mmg the best ah...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: asal?</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">after a while....</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: garang btul mlm ni..</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: heheh</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: nk bg otak ko yg blur tu sedar sket</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">in the middle of the conversation...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: aku x blah die..tp klu die nak..</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: ko sure ke ko xnak?</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: sbb aku x rase ko akn tolak jz like dat..</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: tul x?</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: huuuuuu....</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: nape la aku ada kwn2 yg sgt kenl aku...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: stimes...its a bless....stimes...its a curse</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: then?</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: sape lagi yg nk tolong otak ko yg blur tu buat keputusan?</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: klu x ktorg2 yg knal ko ni</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: kiut la ko...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: adeh2...adeh....</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: ko jpe die dl..</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: tgk ape yg die nk ckp..</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: jujur kat hati ko..</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: for jz one sec, ketepikan la ego ko</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: god...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: u really know me...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: inside out..</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: damn~</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: kan..</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: so skrg ko dh tau pe nak buat?</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">end of our conversation...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: ceni je la..</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: ko jz jpe die, n tgk pe die nak</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: time tu jgn pk pape</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: biar hati ko yg decide..</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: ok...ok...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: tq babe...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: aku pk...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: aku nak tgk citer heroes ni...nak stat dah...ko</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: ko tau citer tu?</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: tau</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: tp aku layan katun je skrg</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: huhh...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: umo dah tua...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: god(?) save our king...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: anime tu bkn utk bdk kecik ek</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: black cat klako</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: aku tau...aku tau</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: nak stat dah ni....</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: ok</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">garnet_1801: bubye</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">suhaili sunar: dudaa.....</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffffff;">fren...a bless</span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-860991379269033566?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-24367339426258145242007-02-27T22:33:00.000+08:002007-03-02T18:41:48.914+08:00<object width="300" height="80"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/m/913tHvEXPW/aus=false/"></param><param name="wmmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://media.imeem.com/m/913tHvEXPW/aus=false/" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="300" height="80" wmode="transparent"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />i have so many questions..left unanswered...i want to ask why...why this song....<br /><br />but there is no exact answer when it involves life...some questions, we better left it unanswered...<br /><br />n i guess...i will live with this confusion for a long time...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-2436733942625814524?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>elihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08957626724094783565noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2757130431107808908.post-32056047213515705862007-02-21T12:48:00.000+08:002007-02-21T13:02:08.379+08:00y do i start this blog...today...now....i just need to write something...apart of pretending that i'm busy (office hour....after 4 days holiday...u do the math....hahaha)....<br /><br />i feel completely empty but full...at the same time...well, i guessed i'm juz being confused...lost...thats wat i am lately....i want to pretend that everything is ok...actually...everything is ok...xcept for me....n its hard for me to adapt....why is evryone is so...normal...while...i'm here being a weirdo...<br /><br />i'm not in those weird weirdo category...its just my mind...i cannot think straight.....ok...i'm barely thinking....i wish for so many things in my life....i've got it all....ok....apart from mazda rx8, being a pilot, n marry batman....but still, i'm blessed wit so many good things in my life....yeah...i own a car not rx8 of course, i have a job, living wit parents, wonderful family, loud friends....i couldn't ask for more.....<br /><br />yet i'm not completely happy....sumthing is missing from me.....i can see it "byebye" me day by day.....i guess....i need to stop wishing....but keep on hoping.....damn....it hard....<br /><br />today....i make a pledge....i wont let anybody.....mess with my life or my heart ever...again.....<br /><br />this blog will remind me of this.....strong eli....strong....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2757130431107808908-3205604721351570586?l=elisunar.blogspot.com' alt='' 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