Monday, December 29, 2008

chapter 10 - trying to keep my mind straight..........

trying to stop...
trying to be strong...
trying to stay sane...
trying to believe...
trying to stay happy...
trying not to show...
trying to be brave...
trying to forget...
trying to...............

what if i stop trying?
what will happen?
what will i loose?


what if i continue trying?
will people care?
what will i get?


what matters now is
i'm trying to sleep.............

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

chapter 9 - when i start to think...i need to stop...n remember..

back to my seat again...

i remember silly question i asked my mom when i was little....

-black n white-

"mak dulu2 xde kaler ye? sume itam putih ye? cane mak pilih baju?"

blame it on black n white movies...

-moon-

"mak, bulan tu suka kat eli kan? dia selalu ikut eli..kat rumah..dalam kereta..."

even when i was in france last week...bulan mmg sgt suka eli...smpai eli besar...


am i ready? am i doing the right thing? will i be happy?

i wish............i can ask silly question again......
without being silly....

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

chapter 8 - kesejukan.....nyesal pakai baju nipis.....padan muka...

winter last year:

sejuk2....at norwich

winter this year:

sejuk2...at toulouse

16th dec last year:

spending final day at uk counting for Malaysia...watching TV, masak2 with roza.

16th dec, today:

trying to understand torque ECU concept with man. and counting for malaysia...hehehe...

final weekend before christmas last year:

bayswater for kebab n samosa, greenwich chilling, heathrow...balik!!!!

final weekend before christmas this year:

jalan at paris (ke mana...we'll see), charles de gaulle...balik!!!


see the connection?

next year? ntah...