chapter 16 - after 4 months

4 months since i first started this blog....
i've been thru a lot within this period...i learn a lot...knowing that life is not as simple as i thought...
lucky i still have my family, my friends, n those who care about me...
something that we should treasure most: a relationship...i dont have lover now....i used to love before and it seems that loving someone is harder now...but its ok....

there's still an empty space in my heart...one tiny spot that make me feels like i lost something....
but its ok...i kept saying...its ok....since i still have people around me that cares about me...

i appreciate what i have now...
if one day...there is love for me...i'll accept...
but for now...i'm happy with wat i have...a loving family...cheerful friends... myself...not to forget...those who care about me....

thank you...

p/s:
i'm in between...
lost and found....
rain and sunshine...
cry and smile....
i'm....blessed....

chapter 15 - our story

chapter 14 - smile

things that made me smile (n it comes direct from my heart) today: 16th may 07

early in da morning, an uncle of mine, veteran, walking in da rain with his kitten.... :)

in da office, a simple ecard from someone that always stand beside me....two cat saying "you're nice"....i did laugh....

evening....maria's email....her emails always made me smile....knowing that i still have a friend...

i smile today.....n it makes me realize, i'm lucky, to still have a smile.....the smile is mine....


"Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend."

chapter 13 - where is the sun?

i have to admit....

i really miss the sun...
despite all the joy in the rain, i want to feel the warmth of the sun.....the feelings that i almost forget....feeling warm....hot perhaps....sweaty....

i'm letting go of everything for a simple wish....i wish...for the sun to shine on me....anytime...soon....